The Inequality of Political Correctness

I'd like to preface this by saying. I do not advocate discrimination on any basis. That being said, my place my rules, don't like em leave. I'm not saying someone is bad, or less then, it's all just choice. Be good to each other, that includes the person in the mirror.

Ok on to the show.
On the surface this sounds like a good idea, and on the surface it is. Who likes to be called names, or teased,  or blackballed for silly things like race, nationality, religious, or sexual orientation. These are all false divisions and recognizing them as such is a nice step forward in the seeing and treating  other as self.  Seeing other as self is a huge step forward in solving many of the problems facing the world at large. It's pretty tough to watch yourself starve, let alone drop bombs on yourself. So from this perspective I applaud the effort, Like so many of our laws it's an attempt to legislate morality. This takes away choice, choice can not be taken it, like all the best we as humans can do, can only be given. Even so, if the PC movement would have stopped there, fine, I get it. If we are to progress socially Those divisions have no place. Unfortunately like so many good ideas, it became a thing unto itself. It moved into what in the gaming world is called homogenization. This is just nice fancy term for, make everything equal. Strange thing in the gaming world, making everything equal has the effect of making everything the same. This leads to a boring gaming world, all the skills and abilities even though they are called different things, and may have differing visual effects are the same.

If we all become identical we will not survive, there would be no difference, nothing to solve, or work toward. As I've said in an earlier post, our greatest advancements have come from our worst episodes of history. When so many band together and share, Amazing things happen. They happen through the bringing together of differing ideas, skill sets, and knowledge. This only possible through our differences, not our sameness. Celebrate both in equal measure if you want PC, celebrate being a member of humanity. Just remember to share the things that make you an individual as well. Those are the interesting bits anyway.
If I want to know about human nature I can look in the mirror. What I need is what makes you, you.

As always, don't listen to me.
Much Love
Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper

Another Doomsday Down

Heya folks

Another armageddon date come and gone. The predictions of our demise are an interesting topic, we've had so many. Most blink by so quietly no one notices. I'm not concerned with the individual days, or the reason people have picked a particular day. I am interested in the idea, it's primal linking to our desire for survival.

We've had so many end of the world dates picked out, it's just another place we have become rubbed numb. We have such a deep seated fear of the loss of self, of individualized consciousness. All our religious, magical, or mystical teachings at some point cover the idea all are connected. I go even a step farther, there is only one thing. Having said that, I don't see an ultimate doomsday. I do see programming getting better and better at freaking people out about the idea. 

How many times does it take, before someone finally gets it right. I'm not predicting anything here. I'm saying we humans will bring it on ourselves. We came up with the idea out of our owns hopes, and fears. We desire to be important enough to wipe out. Simultaneously, we see ourselves as flawed fundamentally unworthy creatures. 

Let me make it clear, I don't actually believe there is any outside malevolent force working night and day to destroy humanity. That would be a massive time sink. What I'm saying is we are our own worst enemy, we have no need for some external boogeyman. We create plenty of our own. How many tries will it take before someone gets it close enough to our concept of the end of the world.

What kinda events would even make the cut, what % of the population has to die to qualify. 

I don't concern myself with global, or larger scale disasters, they happen all the time. Stars go nova, asteroids hit things, these are just everyday events on scales we don't always feel comfortable looking from.

Even our sun will eventually eat us, these are natural processes. 

What I do concern myself with is how programmed we are globally, and that part of that programming is the end of our world.

If god didn't put a sell by date on our carton, we will make it up. It's along the lines of, if god didn't exist man would make one up. We have an innate need for things larger then us, making sure everything is ok. Funny thing about being a child, you don't have alot of say in what happens in your life. Even as adults we put this pseudo parent figure sitting some where watching us. Rewarding us for getting good grades in our cosmic classroom. Punishing us for our transgressions against some law, so far removed from our current existence as to be almost meaningless. 

So am I concerned about an expiration date placed on us by our "creator"?

Not at all, if there is one, it's for a purpose.

That being said I do worry someone with that "perfect storm" the odds are stacked against us, even science says it's a matter of when, not if.  Well if it's bound to happen eventually, whats wrong with now.

Those are the people that worry me, and even beyond that I worry about the people that actively work to bring about our end. We've gone so far as to make it a romantic adventure. Understanding mass psychology from the twisted perspective of my mind. I can see we are creating our own Shiva as destroyer.

It's not a question of if someone will try to kill us all, it's just a matter of when.

As always: don't listen to me.

Jack

Aka PanseyBard digital pied piper

Odds and Ends

Heyas, gonna hit a few ideas today, the first has to do with opposition. Take a look at this image

This isn't a new image, but there is an idea here that I feel a pull toward. If you imaging yourself as any of the rays that extend off the central pentagon. It's pretty easy to notice that you would never be in direct opposition to anyone else. To take this concept a step farther, imagine this as a round table set up. With mirrors set up so you would see yourself as being opposite yourself, we are the only ones standing in our way. The less obvious would be showing you as one of the points forming a trinity, pointing out your role for your cross table neighbors.

As a tie in, I'd like to switch over to the Laws of Attraction, and how our verbal, and mental, emotional syntax effect how this law is working in our lives. The law is working regardless, it's working for everyone, regardless of individual awareness. Creation, God, all that is, whatever you want to call it, is a yes machine. Try this for me, I've posted this before, but it's such an easy illustration I'll reuse it here. Do a search on "not red shoes" or "not anything you want" what your going to notice is this. It's all red shoes, the search engine isn't actually designed to handle negatives, creation works much the same.

This is part of the syntax of Law of Attraction. When you start paying attention to what your putting out into creation really is saying, it starts to clear up some of the less desired effects people get from the application of this law. 

Check out this one, your friend asks you where, and what you'd like to have for lunch. Your response is "I don't care". You just really opened up the range for what you could find yourself putting in your mouth.

Self programming, We have an aspect of us that is very much machine logic running on auto pilot. Some of you may balk at this idea, I'd ask you if you ever drove home, and really couldn't account for the drive. Maybe you were thinking about that party on Friday, or the deadline at work. So the driver knows it job, and did it more or less without your supervision. This opens a can of worms up most western thought generally avoids, that your not your body, or even your mind, or heart. These are aspects of some greater whole we have only begun to see, and even than usually through inference. So the driver learned to drive, and is then more or less able to handle the task, with less then your full attention. It's making choices based on it's programming. Seeing this programming is happening all the time, and the only true way to stop it is isolation. You can mitigate the effects through your awareness of them. Be aware of the messages your taking into the self.

as always make up your own mind

Jack

aka PanseyBard

Dreamer, or the Dreamed, or Npc vrs PC

Many of you get the idea of Dreamer, and the dreamed. A bit less well known outside gaming circles is the mmorpg equivalent, PC or NPC. Those refer to player characters, or non-player characters. In a story, or game you have the characters that are living the story, or actively playing the game. Then you have the characters that are there to help the plot lines move along. This isn't really a new concept, it links back to our original understanding of the fundamental nature of existence. This idea can be seen everywhere, anywhere there is story you can find it. Now what does this mean for us as an individualized aspect of all that is?
It comes down again to choice.
In every moment of this experience, each of us is the center of our story, game, movie which ever conceptualization works for you. Funny thing is most of us allow others to control the direction of the story/game we are the main character of. Much of this ties into the Laws of Attraction, see Oprah's website if you want a look at how main stream these ideas have become. Really all of us are both, we all have times when we are driving the story. Pushing onward being driven, following our passions. We also have times of introspection, when we are much less active externally.
Become aware of the roles your playing, once your aware you can begin to make conscious choices.
I'm not saying to change your role, just be aware your playing a role, feel how this role fits you. See how this role is effecting the person your playing it for. Then make a choice if it's a role you want to continue in, or is it a role you need to change or wake away from.

So are you a PC, or an NPC?
just like in the matrix, everyone is potentially an agent.
the fun part is deciding in the moment the role you feel like playing.

I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite songs, and video's

Jack
aka PanseyBard

Creating Space Time

Today I want to talk about how we move through  space.  When most people think of the solar system they think of an image like this
http://www.solarsystemscope.com/

This is a helpful conception, but is only accurate as far as it goes. The reality is we don't actually make circles, or ellipses. We actually make spirals, very pretty when you see the images.

A few things pop out at me when I begin to think about what this understanding really means. Even this is only a representation. It's lacking the actually movement. The image gives the impression we are on the same plane as the Sun. This isn't really accurate, we are roughly 8.5 min behind the Sun. The big thing that struck me about this is our orbit in relation to the direction the Sun is travelling. Here is a nice link to a site with some detailed numbers on the movement.

http://hypertextbook.com/facts/

Conventional understanding doesn't take this motion into account, neither does it address the observable facts. I'm not even aware of space travel that has taken this into account, though to be fair we haven't gotten that far away from home yet.
Our sun is screaming through the galaxy trailing this could of debris in it's wake. A bit twisted on ego to think of us as being just a little speck in the cloud of dust being trailed along behind a star that by our own observations isn't anything special, as far as stars go. So we drag behind our star by a distance measured in light time. Another thing that pops out to me here is that each individual body is making a wave form if when looked at from a 2d representation, the shape of this wave may be important in ways I have yet to become aware of. What my intuition tells me is we as a solar system create space/time time/space by our movement through the "waters". To put it another way, our sun burns screaming through the fabric created by the spinning, twisting, and turning at micro and macro scales relational above or below itself. creating the space/time within our local solar system. The spin, and motion of our planet further rips this fabric of time/space creating our local planetary space/time environment. Brass tacks on this, we have our own planetary present, each solar system has it's own localized present, and within the solar system each body would have it's own present. it's own unique space/time. This is a micro/macro concept, you can scale it up and down to find the present moment time waves for each system, then body within that system.
We literally live in our own unique present moment of space/time.
I'm getting a bit sidetracked from my original intent for today's contemplation. Yes I am messed up enough to have this be fun for me. I'll come back to the implications of us creating our own space/time by the very movement through the fabric of space/time time/space itself again. For now I want to get back to the relational movements. Locally in our galaxy in our arm of the milky way there is a central point we orbit. I'm using orbit only because that is the accepted term. I'm not entirely sure that it is accurate, our concept of orbit is a bit lacking to fully describe what we observe. The reality is we can't be sure we've ever been in the same place twice. We are on a planet, being trailed behind this scoop type engine, racing through our local space . Our local space being trailed along by it's galaxy engine, we see that as the super massive black hole, and it's racing around some even bigger center, this is also seen going down in scales. Where/When this whole confusing mess pulls off a mobius strip, klein bottle trick I have no clue. We can look at the cycles already tracked, and give a good idea of minimums, I had picked out some nice images of both of those concepts, I kinda figure if you don't know what those are, you prolly didn't get this far.
I'm gonna move back into more localized conceptions. I don't know any of this for fact please always keep your wits about you. Don't believe anything I write ever at face value, make up your own mind, or even better make me refine my own understanding. That being said, Most can come with me on a journey fairly localized, and not stretch credibility to far. The flood story could easily be macro'd to a solar system scale. With each planet potentially holding a dizzying array of differing forms of life, all safely encased in Their own localized space/time protected by a larger space/time bubble created by the very engine propelling the craft.
Set in an out of the corner little spot where it won't get to shaken during the move, dash with a little chaos theory, and a multi angled story view from inside the monkey house(earth) to the external view of the beings that would create such a message in a bottle. Wow I'm pretty stoned, and so far from my starting point.
I think I'm gonna wrap it up here for now.
As always pay no attention to the man behind the curtain

have fun
Jack

11/11 gateway 1620

Today I'm gonna introduce you to another of my delusional tracings of story. It relates to the 11:11 or 11/11 gateway. 

This ties into the idea that America never won the revolutionary war, and is still a British colony. 

Couple of links if this is a new idea for you

http://www.theforbiddenknowledge.com/hardtruth/united_states_british_colony_index.htm

http://www.civil-liberties.com/books/

I'd like people to keep in mind that while subject to the crown, the colonies were charted to the bank of England. A fight with the crown wouldn't negate the articles of incorporation tying the colonies to the bank.

This is what made the events of 11/11 1620 so meaningful. The mayflower compact was signed. Creating a direct link to the divine directly through the sovereign.

here are a couple of links to information about that document.

http://americanhistory.about.com/od/colonialamerica/a/may_compact.htm

http://www.ncmayflower.org/mayflowercompact.htm

This leads me to a little known club, and what are clubs that most people don't know about?

http://www.themayflowersociety.com/

http://www.sail1620.org/

a quick look at this page, traces this groups influence pretty well

http://freepages.genealogy.rootsweb.ancestry.com/~smason/html/cousins.htm

A bit about how I got on this particular thread of story. My grandmother traced our family back to the Adams. I have not confirmed this, it's just what I was told. I add it here only to show what even caused me to find this odd story line.

This raises interesting questions on many fronts, whole new vistas of story waiting to be exploited.

Well another crazy view

till next time

Jack 

Catch the Wave

A bit of background for those interested. It's long been thought that the center of our galaxy is populated by a supermassive black hole. I'd take issue with the label supermassive, that denotes perspective. I mean how massive would it be if your the being our universe resides in. As that being your not even likely to be aware of our existence. Ya know the horton hears a who idea. Lets face it things are how we say they are only because we agree, and pressure anyone who doesn't into submission.

here are a few links for those wanting a few ideas about black holes being the center of our galaxy. What I'm going to talk about next is going to be stretching some of these concepts a bit.

Nasa
environmentalgraffiti


Let me start with a basic premise that has been shown to me. Bodies with gravitational mass  orbit in an orientation of 90 degrees in relation to the direction of movement of gravitational mass at the center of it's orbit. This is an odd conceptual visualization for me, but it explains a few relational anomalies, ie why the moon always shows us the same face, without needing to adding in ET. I'm still not convinced the moon is an unassisted capture for our planet, but that is another story. Today's story is about our Galaxy, our Sun, and us. Think our celestial trinity, our mother, father, and holy ghost so to speak. Why if our galaxy is at it's core a black hole haven't we been sucked into it, especially if as they would have us believe it's supermassive?
To make a stable vortex you take one cyclone spinning in one direction, and put another cyclone nested spinning opposite. Take this idea, and apply it to our central black hole. This inner vortex has recently been very active. The effect of which is a geyser of energy shooting out creating a toroidal energy shape encompassing our entire galaxy. Check this video for info on this shape.

This forms almost 2 perfect half spheres with the energy rushing back into the center of our galaxy along the galactic plane. The effect of this influx of energy is our entire galaxy has heated. The effect on our Sun is to change the rate at which it burns through it's fuel. Check this out for a ton of info on this idea
http://paneandov2012.com/sun-goes-red-giant-23-dec-2012/

Now this is where I'm going to go off the path. For those who could follow up till now, but want to kick back and enjoy the show please stop here.

The problem for most evolving consciousness, that means us, we are the wee ones that are slow on the uptake, myself included, is time. How to allow for enough experience of time to allow for people to expand their consciousness enough to feel their innate connection to all things, in a single lifetime. The answer is you can't, at least not without help. Our machines have made this hack possible, the problem has been time. Our own insistence, contrary even to our everyday experience of dimensional time in our everyday lives. We still use sayings like, "time marches on", "time waits for no man" I think you get the idea. I still get caught up in it, even though I know dimensional time radiates out from me. Time, and Space are functions of dimensionality,  They are tools/constructs to allow for experience. Time/Space, Space/Time provide the illusion of separation, which allows the rediscovery another aspect of all that is.
So, How do you make many lifetimes cram into one?
How about this quote "seeing is believing". Well most of us have already seen many variations on the apocalypse theme. How many lives have you lived? From a certain perspective I've lost count. I'm a sponge, I can become emotionally involved enough in books that I cry, and experience slight separation anxiety when a series I've become attached to ends.
So how do you cram many lifetimes into one?
you use mind control, to cause external experiences, to become internalized, and intergrated below the level of conscious awareness. You compress lifetimes into their salient bits, their sound byte essence. This formula works for events, as well as people, usually they are mixed.
You then hypnotize the mass populace, so most of the work is done below their awareness.

Ok so purpose, why is this much effort being expended to effect this change in how individuals view themselves? I haven't shown myself that.....yet.

As always this is my crazy perspective.
have fun.
Jack

Are you Greater than the Sum of your Parts?

Since I've begun to be more open about my own perspectives. I've had many people ask me about the hows, of unfoldment I went through. I can tell anyone what I did to mold myself into the person I now am.
This isn't really something I can accurately answer. I am as I am. If someone else did exactly the events in the same order I did them, essentially live my life, it still wouldn't make them me. I'm going to show what to some will seem outlandish, others will have an ahhhaa moment, still others will shake their head at my total disregard for some aspect I am as of yet unaware.

Energetic Imprinting

This is a very broad conceptual framework. I will be looking at it from the stand point of an individualized consciousness. Those are really just fancy words for I'm going to try to explain what I mean from my perspective, it's the only one I can claim.

So many people follow to some degree or another astrology, numerology, tarot, synchromysticism, or any host of different systems designed to try to give you a glimpse at the "bigger" you. I use the quotes to point out this is a relative term, things are all about perspective. Now this is all grand, great fun, and you can leave it there. Blue pill Red pill choice offered, Lol. The thing is we are energetic beings, and all of these things are describing the best they are able the energies imprinting us, from which ever realm the system we are looking at is trying to describe. As we have gone more global the influence which at one point in history may have been small, becomes more apparent. Where this gets more confusing as well as more entertaining is once you are aware you can see how things are effecting you, and chose which ones are appropriate for where your going, not where you've been. These energetic imprints are not generally current, even in the case of a divination, or forecasting. What is being seen is the answer to the Schrodinger cat equation, out of context. It's only true at the moment it was looked at, and even looking changed it to one degree or another.

Practical Application

Once you open to the possibility that your living patterns, and stories you begin to see how what seems unrelated definitions of self have been shaping your experience. You are then able to take a proactive approach. Define yourself differently, Label yourself as you are. I've had a blockage where people have assumed another name, this is hypocritical as I wouldn't let anyone call me by my given name till I was in middle school. Looking at it from my current perspective, I wasn't ready to be me. This is what gives me pause when dealing with someone that is using a name I don't see them as embodying. Be yourself, but be aware of what the labels we've attached ourselves mean. Then don't make the same mistakes the people from the stories made.

From one perspective I'm a Jack. Many stories have been written about my energy. I am not these stories, but I do see many of the same story elements being played out in my life. I also see what happens to people who take on a mantle that isn't theirs, or that they are unable to fully embody. My name has taught me many things, but it's only a name.

Jack

Be the Story

I wanna bring in a slightly different twist to creating your life from the perspective of storytelling.
Depending on who you listen to people will tell you there are X number of different story plots.
I really liked this article on the topic How many stories are there. I agree the divisions are arbitrary, we create the divisions. This is harmony with my understanding that we create duality by creating divisions.
Even the idea of there being one story doesn't fit quite right for me. I see the one story weaving through every life I examine. I've come to the point where I still know nothing, understand even less, and sit in stunned awe.
When I look for the story, what I see is potential, when I look into the void of spaces between spaces I see potential. Where ever I look I see potential. For me, with the vista I'm ready to see. Beyond being creator, and dictating my experience of a potential I've admitted I have yet to understand. This space outside of the drama, dharma, maya, Whatever you have labeled it as, is where I find my true comfort. It's the place where I can see you for you. Not be in the state where I'm forcing you to play a role in drama. This is the space where your divinity becomes clear to me. I see the role you desire me to play in your creation. When I'm especially transparent I even see the roles your willing to play in a drama of my making.
This space is the space of wonder, this space is the potential from which story springs. It doesn't exist other then in fleeting moments stolen by those brave, crazy, lucky, or stupid enough to stumble into it.
This is the space where dreams are made, funny thing is while your there it's not where your dreams are made. This is the space reserved for the mystic, the shaman, king maker. From this no space, all potential, perfect zero sum null, there is no projection. Dreams are plucked from space, like lighting is pulled by the earth from the potential in the sky. The space where I am you, for I no longer exist. I lose myself, give myself over to your journey through OZ. I get to play the parts you allow me in the unfolding of the story only you can tell. By my surrender to your will I get a glimpse of my own nature, reflected in the roles you assign me.
These are only roles, costumes I don at your pleasure. When I am able to sustain this space within me, This blank slate approach, or being the un-carved block, doesn't define me. I've already defined myself by finding this space. This place where nothingallthingsomethingneverthing, I become limitless potential, I am nothing because you haven't given me a role. I heard once that Kanye West said something to the effect, if the bible was being written today I'd be in it. He of course got slammed by many. I saw the over inflated ego. I also see that as a healthy ego, creating a mythic experience. It's the go big, or go home mentality taken to the global scale. The context is of course very different. People don't remember the teachings of Jesus because of what he said about himself. People remember the teachings because they are worth remembering.
Seems to me the line from Star Wars A New Hope would fit here in twisty sort way

"Sand People are easily Frightened, but They will soon be Back, and in Greater Numbers"

Thank you all for the stories.
Jack

Your Life, Make it Your Story

Going to take a slightly different tack.

Pretty much everyone has read a book, watched a movie, played make believe.
In doing so, how ever outlandish your being shown different modes of behavior
for a variety of situations, or roles you might find yourself in. In a sense almost
everyone has while being programmed by the media to become one thing or
another, have at the same time been learning to identify with all of it.
Once you are able to identify with a character role, or archetype, you open up the
possibility of the experience of playing, that archetype, or role opens up to you,
in your physical experience. This concept is really just a different take on the ideas of
Napoleon Hill

These ideas have morphed into the Laws of Attraction. These tie into the concept of your life as a story, because you become the director/star of your own story. To go a little deeper, you are also the casting director. This ties into my earlier post, Tips and Tricks of the Law of Attraction.. As the Director/Creator or the story staring you, who/what are playing the varied roles you as the Director/Creator have defined to tell your story need to be identified. This allows you as the Director/Creator to see if this is a compelling role in your story, and if so, is the person/thing filling the role currently right for the role. A note on identifying the roles people are filling, versus the true nature of the person/thing filling that role. In the world we find ourselves quite often people will present themselves as one way, when they act in another. Other people can't lie to you, but you can lie to yourself. Once you understand we are all playing out the stories, in their many permutations, as well as practicing identifying the roles people are playing in yours. It will naturally follow that you will begin to see the role your playing in others. This will show you that all the roles are available to you to choose from. I would advise caution here, be aware of what you are choosing as a role.
Donning the garb of the wrong archetype in the wrong situation will bring unforeseen results. It might have your story ending rather abruptly. think "it's better to burn out, then fade away".
We are all here to be the star of our individual life, see others as they are. If your role in their story is to teach  a lesson, teach it as gently as possible. Every story has it's lessons, and I'm pretty sure you'd like yours to be as gentle as possible.

Write a great story, everyone is watching.

Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper

Reality as a Game

This is one of the posts I'm moving over from my old site.
I have expanded on the concepts, and will be doing a continuation soon


This is a very intimate topic to me. To give a little bit of context gaming has been a passion for me. Honestly it still is, just what I perceieve as game has changed. I can remember playing pong for hours, flipping space invaders on the atari 2600. Being introduced to D&D at like 11, much love to GG. Speaking of D&D interesting new perspective on the dice, ever notice they just happen to be the platonic solids. Just the act of writing this is causing me to see even more aspects of it, even into the chose your own adventure books. When computer rpg's started coming out I played em all. We pirated our way through so many stories, so many lives. Of course I would soon out pace the sophistication of the games, and tire of them causing the need for more of everything. Then mmorpg's came along for those who don't know that is a massively multiplayer online role playing game. I dove deep into everquest 1, I devoted 12 years mostly to eq1, eq2, wow host of others. Alot of people see it as escapism, and from the perspective that I see alot of injustice in the world yes it was. At the sametime it was teaching me so much about how creation actually works, even the idea of nesting realities within realites, and the layering of realities digital to analog, and back, and then the blending of the myriad of realites.

I know alot of that is a huge stretch for alot of people, So I'm gonna keep right on pushing. This is my blog and my subjective view always under revision lol.

Think for a moment about ouroboros the snake eating it's own tail, or perhaps the spiral that eventuall loops back into it's starting point only to spin back out again. Now keep going and think of infinite nested game worlds each one impacting the one it's in and ones relationally close. Eventually those game worlds fold back, and the smallest influences the largest. Lets look closer at the interaction between these worlds. I'm not always controling the character, when I'm not it does whatever it's preprogrammed to do, Then I take control and now it's doing my bidding for it's ultimate growth, even though I kill it torture it, and do wacky inane things with it. My ultimate goal is grow that character.  How about from the view of the character. The world it inhabits is the only one it's has direct knowledge of. There are no visable clues as to the nature or origins of the commands it sometimes recieves. Though it may or maynot be aware of the change from preprogrammed response or self generated response, to an outside response. This entity wouldn't even be aware it was created by me for my pleasure and growth. This doesn't even matter scince if this entity could have free will it would be to grow and reach it's full potential. As our drives, or desires are aligned. This entity has no way to understand why it suddenly groups up with a bunch of other people to slay the dragon or what have you. This entity doesn't have the same over view of the game world. That being said I only have influence in it's world through it. This alone creates a symbiotic relationship.

there is so much more on this. I'll have to continue next time



Panseybard

Are We in Hell?

This Question might not be as outlandish as it seems.

I'm not saying I actually believe we are in hell, my understanding is all things are relational in nature. One mans trash is another mans treasure, and all that. As all real truth this adage applies on many levels.

So what would cause me to ask a question, and write a blog about something I, off the bat tell you I don't believe? My understanding of how creation works drives me. 

As I've stated I've grown up in a western culture, so on the surface I appear to hold many western values.

This may or may not be true, you'd have to dig deeper to find out. That foundation, as pretty a picture as it paints is like everything I've found in this world, either partially, or wholly misleading.

Foundations of Western Religious/Mystical beliefs.

People pretty much know this story, and some people actually do. Most just think they do. Judaism, and Catholicism are rooted in mystical teachings of the Kabbalah, there are several spellings so forgive me if mine offends you. By the way if that part offended you, you might not want to keep reading.

 That is an image that many refer to as the proto tree of life. Please understand what is being passed on with this image. This is a map of creation going from the first manifestation of what in the western traditions is God. If an examination of the foundations of your religious beliefs is going to offend you please I bed you stop reading. I am playing with the toys that have been given me. I don't have many, so please let me play with what I do have. The reason this is called the proto tree of life is do to the missing paths that appear in what we are told is later versions. What I have read is this, when this map was valid binding agreements made the pillers, or the light/dark what ever you want to label them as, had to go through another world before being allowed to manifest into the one we currently experience.

These images are much more recent, the paths connecting "our sphere" to 7, and 8 respectively are instered. There is also a new sphere in both these images not a true sphere more of a place holder.
A bit about how I came at this. I loved lsd in my twenties, I really enjoyed popping a 10 strip, and meditating for hours. One of the understandings that were revealed to me was a theory of numbers based on relationships between individualized consciousness. Basically what would form solid circles of people naturally, and what groupings would splinter into smaller groups, or attract more people to balance them.
When I explained my insight to someone they asked me if I had heard of the Kabbalah, cuz I just explained to them the framework for it. I was an early to mid twenties kid that grew up in an affluent area, selling pot and other "hippy drugs" cuz I couldn't really keep a normal job, nor did I really enjoy them. Of course I hadn't heard of it. But it didn't take long till I was learning about it.

The Crux of the Matter.

Ok hopefully you get the idea that I'm coming from a place of having at least a basic understanding of the subject, and I might at the very least be qualified to ask questions.

First question: how do we define hell.

This one for many true believers will be tough, but the definition that has most stuck with me is this.
Hell is being as far removed from your reason for being as you can get and still remember it's why you are.

Second Question: Where on our map is God?

This is much easier, They tell us God is on the top of the map, numero uno top of the woods baby.
sorry my irreverence seems to slip out at the most opportune moments.

Third Question: Where on our map are We?

This is also an easy one. We are told we are on the bottom of the map. pat on the back if you got where I was going before now!

Conclusion: We are in Hell

By the map we in the west have been given, and the traditions we have been taught. WE LIVE IN HELL!!
gives a new spin on the half truths, and misdirection's that seem to permeate our culture.
or to the idea that our leaders might engage in practices most of us would find hard to imagine.


Please keep in mind this isn't my map, this isn't actually even my understanding. I'm a gamer at heart. Gamers finish the game, and move on to the next. It's what I've learned to be. Taken to the extreme of power gaming you enter the world of Min, Maxing, your corporate people should love this one. It's the number crunching to get the maximum effect from a given set of circumstances, with the least amount of effort. It's gaming math geek style. Now I never took it that far, Those people were my friends. I could hang with them, I just didn't want to go pro, that level of dedication to any one thing is what takes to be among the best. But when it comes down to it, I don't care about being the best, I just like being entertained.


Follow your own pattern.
Much Love
Jack Baldwin aka
PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper.

DreamTime, or as I like to call it, Internal, and External realities.

From Australia Via What we have called the Aborigines, another culture almost decimated by western domination we get the idea of dreamtime. This is a very cool concept based on the idea of bringing your dream life, and waking life into a seamless whole. Overall this idea has be labeled mystic, or outlandish.

Some I'm will to bet have called people who subscribe to this understanding crazy. Well I am a bit crazy, I freely admit that, though I would debate the point that understanding of the truth behind this idea has anything to do with me being crazy..

From a western point of view we might need to take another look at this wild idea from the aussie outback.

Many of the western "experts" on psychology would agree with me, when I make the statement we all have a subjective internal reality, and an objective external reality. I would challenge just how accurate that statement is. If we all have our own internal subjective reality, that's the one in your head, where your the star of the show. If that is what is happening internally, how do we then come together, externalize these two internal subjective realities and come up with something objective. By myself I have no objective reality, so how could I add another being that also by themselves have no objective reality, and between the combination come up with something subjective. The very definitions we have set forth for subject, object relationship would preclude such an outcome. In order to have an objective view you can't be a subject, this isn't limited to being a subject in the drama being viewed. This would mean you couldn't be the subject ever.

It's the idea of who watches the watchers? The answer can only be no one, when you define things as subject/object. 

Now that I've rambled through some of my twisted logic to get to the point of what is driving me to post this blog.

The concept of Dreamtime is so simple most of us have missed it, we all practice it to some degree or another. It's the bleed through, or the blending of your internal, and external realities. Taken to it's ultimate they become one seamless whole. In the movie the matrix, they talk about dreams, and how if you were in a dream that was so real you couldn't distinguish it from your waking reality, How would you know.

When you merge your internal, and external subjective realities you become something different then you were. It's not that you outwardly change, though that can happen. For me this merging is odd, I was so far in physical appearance from my core image of who I am the change has been fairly dramatic if I judge by other subjective views shared with me.

Another aspect of this that won't be ignored ties to the brain hemispheres. I've worked on balancing the hemispheres of my brain for over 20 years off and on. I really can't even take credit for that. Yes I used the tools I could get my hands on, it was western mass media that made it so easy to get. I'm talking here about those stereo-gram pictures, you know the ones that look like a bunch of dots till you kinda zone out.

What they didn't tell us was what physiologically was happening that allowed our focus to shift to see the picture of the sailboat (mallrats reference). To see the image your brain hemispheres have to come into closer alignment, operating simultaneously then we had normally been doing in the past. Yes I'm saying we are being programmed. Sometime back in lsd hazed days I understood what the effect of these were and started using them proactively. This combined with Dreamtime leads to an ever deepening pool of understanding to draw from.

Writing this has actually opened up new connections my discovery of self.

So I can't thank you enough for that.

I hope you are able to pluck your strings of understanding from my crazy mess.

Jack

aka PanseyBard 

Sex....another of our dirty little not so secrets

I'm not gonna try to define sex, I might not always be to bright, but my name isn't mud either.
From my perspective, and lets keep in mind sex is something I've been without for longer then I care to admit. Oh I've had offers, none that I could accept with a clear heart, and mind.  Yes I'm a guy who hasn't had sex in way to long, and I've turned it down several times, Shocker I know.
I'm messed up, I don't think like most people I meet, this isn't news, pay attention, when someone is not like you. You might just see something of yourself you didn't know existed.

I'm gonna say some really out there things in the next little bit. I don't expect you to believe me, nor would I want you to. This is my junk attached to sex that I've learned from everyone around me. Now if you choose you can watch me spill it, as much as you want. if this gets views, and comments I'll keep adding.
I'm me all messed up, and loving it.

I was very sexual from a really early age. I remember my Mom catching me with my hands down my girlfriends pants at 5. Bless my mom she handled it pretty well, asked me to step in hall. Once we got there she asked if I knew what I was doing. My girlfriend happened to be 12, it wasn't what was happening that gave my Mother pause, it was being sure I was a willing participant or not. I was a very willing participant so ya know. I convinced my babysitter to teach me how french kiss at the same age. Damned if I can figure out how I did it, beautiful Filipino Girl, can't recall her name, but I still dream of her hair. That would be where I learned my weakness for Asian women, I have weakness for them all actually. I can be mid steam talking about quantum physics with someone, a beautiful woman walks by, and I forget my name.
The only time I have had an extended period of life where I didn't have a girlfriend for lack of a better term, has been recently. We've all gone crazy!!!!
The expectations are insane.  Illustrating my point is something that happened to me recently. Bumped into a female friend I haven't seen for awhile, and she invited me over to have dinner with her, her kids, a mutual friend, and his kid.  When I get there, she is on the phone constantly with new boyfriend's roommate. They had only been seeing eachother for a few months, don't even live in the same town, I even during the course of the evening got her to admit she didn't even feel this guy was the one for her. Yet she is on the phone telling him that if he doesn't show up at her house like now, that it's over. This guy doesn't even live in the same state. For me this was insane, if anyone tried to pull that crap on  me I'd have said later bitch, have a nice life on the first call. I even told her that, and it was like it didn't even register. This whole episode was over? you might have guessed it would be social media, thank you Facebook. Yeah that's right he hadn't changed his Facebook pictures, and even though she knew he didn't use it much, it didn't matter. Not to mention the fact, both of them had been in long term relationships when they started seeing each other.
The kicker to this story is the very next day I run into her ex, yes the one she was with when she started seeing her new man. Yes she thinks of them as possessions.
Well being the friendly out going person I am, going into a conversation already in progress, I break in with, Hey I hung out with your ex last night. This was the best, and worst thing I could have said. If I am an evil genius, which I have been called, even recently, and some people called me Simon Bar-sinister after an unfortunate hair cut in high school. Now if he had left it at that, no problem I was in the conversation, and he would have shown he was over his ex. He proceeded to grill me over every detail, and I let him, just giving him enough with each answer to get him to ask the next question. Horrible as it seems, when I realized how hooked he was on someone I knew couldn't return those feelings, I was actually trying to help him, best of intentions and all that.  He gets so worked up he eventually excused himself, leaving his 2 co-workers, and I to discuss how I had just devastated him. He went home, and proceeded to call her repeated, then wrist a nasty email. I of course got the call from her the next day reaming me out for exposing the secrets of her love life. My thought was, and is this, if you don't want me in your crap, then don't invite me. Once you invite me, it's not your crap anymore. Your basically saying my crap is to much for me to handle on my own, will you please help me handle it. Well if your gonna do that expect it to be handled in ways your not used to.
I also was told by one of his co-workers, a beautiful young woman named Angel, that Karma was gonna come get me for what I had done to him.  I had to explain to her, that she had no way of knowing that I wasn't being Karma's bitch for the outset, and that in viewing the event from her perspective might not be what was happening. Side note, I don't claim to be karma bitch, but I wouldn't be surprised if she has used me like the slut I really am.

Ok back to boogity boogity. Sorry I tend to go quantum when I'm typing. It's the sound byte attention span I have been programmed with, combined with a quantum aspect I haven't really grasped fully.

I have problems with sex, I'm told to respect women, which I do. I love women, I was that kid in elementary school that did the plays just cuz the gender ratio was amazing. Yes I'm that messed up.
I see beautiful women everywhere I look, and they are so exposed I can't even help but look. When I get caught looking, it's either a hell yes that looks good to me too, or a you should be ashamed of yourself for even looking. Seriously, I'm a Man, I'm very visually stimulated, if you write on your ass I'm going to take my time reading it, even if it just says pink. If it says juicy more then likely if I agree I'm gonna take it to the next thought, taking a bite out of it.  In other words if you don't want me to look don't display. Note to parents, please use a little guidance in how you allow your daughters to go out in public. I know this is a touchy area, I understand they are budding young women exploring what it means to be a sexually attractive being. I even know talking about it is deemed inappropriate by the main stream culture I live in. They tell me it's not ok to lust after women, then splash female flesh of all ages before my eyes all day long. The culture I live in I call it a death cult, worships youth. From my perspective it's a fear of their own mortality driving them, but that's another story. When I look around almost half of what I see I'd like to sleep with, if it wouldn't damage them, or myself in the doing. It's the ultimate expression of my worship of the divine feminine made flesh.
I feel part of my problem and it's prolly true for  other men as well, stems from the being carried in womb, raised by women. It puts me in a position of having grown up watching relationships as man, filtered through the perspective of a woman. The cruel joke here is, though my female friends tell me how much I actually understand women, biology tricks them into thinking I am not suitable mating material. Yup that's right everyone knows it, but they don't seem to get the implications. I'm talking about the women who just can't help fall for the bad boys. Even see it in celebrities, women dig a bad boy. Little secret that's biological trick being played on you. Back before civilization as we know it, the best chance for the survival of.off spring from the female perspective was to get the biggest baddest guy around, his genes combined with yours give your offspring, your dna's best chance to be represented in the next generation. This worked for awhile, we don't live in that world anymore, though the biological drives are still there. The shift is happening geeks are starting to be looked at as sexy for their very geekness. For men of the same era, things were a bit different.
If you proved you were the coolest cat in the jungle no one questioned you taking what you wanted. Not even if it wasn't yours to take. We also see this lingering around. This was due to male wanting to make sure his genetics were dominate.
There is an aspect of this that I don't see talked about much so I'd like to take a moment to do so.
With women carrying the children inside their bodies, it sets up an odd situations. you don't need a close to 50/50 gender ratio to provide for continuation of species, or to ensure genetic diversity. I'm sure somewhere someone took the time to figure it out, but I'd be willing to bet it's in the 12 to 1 range, just a hunch based on a bigger pattern. Think of a lion pride, and apply the concepts to harems, and the like. Once again the stuff that got us here becomes the very things we need to understand if we are to evolve as consciousness.
Once again I got diverted by my own wandering mind.
I guess it just comes down to people are crazy, we don't even really understand what drives us, and why.
Most of us are so busy with our so called everyday lives we never even stop to ponder the why's.
I guess my biggest hang up with sex is the after effect. I had a bit of time between two, five+ relationships where I didn't want anything with "love". People thought of me as a player, I didn't. I always thought of a player as someone that tricked people into a sexual encounter. I never did that, I was totally honest with the women I met. I told them flat out we could hang out, have fun but that was it. I didn't want to be their man, and I was looking to possess any woman. If they wanted to hang out great, if not great. What I didn't yet get was, I was telling them "you can't have me". This triggers a response in people. Think Jedi mind tricks.
All that stuff going around using psychological triggers to elicit a response in someone is true. The caveat being if they are aware, they will catch you! What happens from there is anyone's guess.

To wrap things up, because I've been writing long enough to forget why I started, let me say this.
The culture I have grown up in celebrates sex, and uses it to sell everything, including sex itself. The morality of the culture I've grown up in tells me sex except under certain conditions is a sin, and punishable by my creator.

Seriously? you know how screwed that would make me. I have no desire to meet the obligations for morally approved sex, as set forth by my culture. I also have no desire to remain celibate, This leaves me a dilemma only a woman can solve. LMAO

Much Love.

Remember

No matter how good someone looks to you
Somewhere, Someone
Is sick of their shit

poof, I'm mythology

PanseyBard

Whats in a Name

People have been asking me about my name. I picked it up playing everquest 1, my main character was a wood elf bard named Nuviel. The bard class was funny thing, they could fill in for almost any role in the group, but they really weren't designed to handle any of them.  The class just played a tune, and it was either good for you, or bad for you.  The name stuck because of the way the class worked, if something ran at you, you ran away, if something ran away you chased. Might seem a bit odd, till you think Zen, and Taoism.

I loved the class, but I always thought the way it worked was kinda wuss, hence the name. I am a heterosexual male. 

side note I've been organizing, so I'll posting some stuff I took off my poetry site here.

if a post looks a bit odd it's cuz I copy pasted. read it or don't it's your choice.

PanseyBard

Was having a conversation with a friend about the first step that someone would take to awaken. This is an odd concept, every step we take is one on our own unique path. It's even kinda humorous to call it a path, it's not like there is anywhere to go. We all are gonna do what we are all gonna do. Saw a title of a book that I really liked, "Everyone Poops".  People don't tend to love themselves, or even like themselves.  How can you love anyone if you can't love the one you're closest to. I guess if I had to pick a spot to start that would be it. I'm talking an ego based love, of how great you are, I mean an honest love, one that sees all the faults, and loves not in spite of, but because of.
Panseybard

Every thought, feeling, action radiates out from it's source through all of creation. As you might be able to imagine this is a lot of ripples. These ripples don't all have equal amplitudes. Highly charged emotional events cause higher amplitude ripple effects. One positive action centered from the heart, has the power to create a ripple of loving selfless acts radiating from it's center. That's what is meant by "be the love you want to see in the world". You can truly be the epicenter of a shift in being. Be you, be love.

Panseybard

How do you Fertilize your Garden

This one is gonna be short, cuz it’s to simple to spend much time on.
Plus I wanna go play a few games a pool, and forget I have a few days to make my rent.

The best stuff grows from shit.
yup I said it!

lets look at that from and as above so below point of view

Think of the song  by OutKast Roses lets not forget where we came from.
Just cuz we came from the shit doesn’t mean we have to live in it.

If I seem dark to you....it’s cuz you're standing in my light

thanks

Jack

You are what you Eat

This saying always bothered me, I'm not a cow just cuz I eat a steak.
Recently I've come to understand it a bit differently.

You are what you ingest.
what that means to me is this. I have many places to make whats outside, inside, and whats inside, outside.
This shouldn't be ground breaking for anyone. We eat, and poop, most of us are even willing to admit it.
what I'm really talking about is looking at everything as data. or programming. Anything, and I mean anything you allow into body,mind, spirit temple repeatedly you will become. This shouldn't be news either, I think therefore I am is a great example.

So this is a great example about just twisty my own mind becomes.

When I sat down to write this, I had a pretty clear idea of the overall concept I wanted to get across.

As I am writing it, my understanding of it deepens, it's the idea you don't really learn something till you teach it. 

So how about this, you become what, and how you think and feel about all the things you input, and output

even the manifestations shape themselves to how you view what is defined as self, and other.

If I had a point to all this it went bye bye with the my second hit off the pipe. 

Really it comes down to being aware of how we are designed, how we have been programmed.

If you don't think your programmed, take a peek into  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Edward_Bernays

hmmm. Still don't think someone could program you? not even a little?

Gonna sign off with a riddle today

Why did the 1 and the 2 get together to make the 3?

there are so many answers to this, I'd love to read some of yours

My answer is:  They knew they couldn't contain themselves separately.

ahh trinities are a lovely thing.

Don't listen to me, I might be Sane!!!!

Jack 

I know who raised me, Do you?

I find the period of transition on the one hand a chore, something it seems I’m trying to labor through as quickly as possible. Yet on the other hand the state of flux, that place where it’s make or break.
the next spin of the wheel will catapult you places you never dreamed, or curb stomp your ass for your arrogance.
This is the place I’ve found myself in for the past 6 months or so.  As of this moment from the calendar a major portion of the globe insist we follow I have a few days to cover my rent.
When measured against the commitments of those around me,
I Live on a pittance. For several years living in the VoC, a tiny unincorporated sliver next to Sedona, Arizona. A retirement/tourist town. I’ve been able to skate by with bills totalling $600.00 a month.
I’ve made my outward life the perfect reflection of slacker. Please don’t misunderstand, until the last Six months I worked usually seven days a week. I had my part-time job at the local video store, I considered it’s my safe goof off job. As long as I was good with the people, and the money the money the owner let me skate by on the, what I came to view as the busy work. I am well aware of the need to keep things clean, I just don’t like doing it. Being the selfish prick I can be, I may very well know what is expected of me, and I’m will only do what I have to. For most of that time, and really to lesser extent going back most of my life I’ve helped with tech stuff.
I didn’t go to school for it, I dropped out of school mentally by middle school, lasted physically till late high school, funny thing about that is. As soon as no one was watching I stopped doing what they expected of me, and started doing what I loved doing in the moment....
It seems in this I would be considered an early adopter.
Funny thing I might be one of the odd generation that slipped between the analog, and digital age. My saving grace so to speak would of course be my Mom. Being a single mother through the 70’s wasn’t the easiest path she could have chosen, though I’m ever grateful she did, or I wouldn’t have had the freedom from early childhood to not become too close a copy of her, experiential imprinting for lack of better terminology on my part.
This means I was a latchkey kid in kindergarten. It has been decided upbringing was unfit living conditions for a child.
For all that, if I wasn’t allowed myspace to learn in my way, from where, and who I wanted, I wouldn’t be the person writing this.
When I claim to be one of The early adopters, what I mean is this. I for the most part raised myself. The time period and circumstances meant I had access to computers, and the toys associated with them. Combine with a love of games, roleplaying especially. My uncle collected the outline of the rules for D&D when it was still a series of magazine articles, and taught me, and a couple of his friends. The first set of books come out by the end of the summer, hr made sure I went home with the basic game set, and all full set of 4 original books. There was a game only geeks were into, of course only geeks were in to computers at the time also. The two were well matched. I remember playing the first real attempt at a mass produced rpg type game, Adventure for the Atari 2600.
Basicly if it combined role-play, and a game world other than this, I was in. The more powerful the number crunching of the machines. the more detailed, and realistic the worlds became. I learned old school basic before I learned how to do the math I was using.
The point to this inane ramble is simple. I have become what I needed to in order to remain me, and still live in a world I don’t really understand. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve become adept at reading people’s motivations. What I didn’t understand is the thought process that gets people from thinking to action.  I understand I think differently than most around me. I grew up with the logic of the machine.  If/then for/next, the trouble with that logic is it’s not conducive to emotion. So I became more and more disconnected from my own emotional nature.  As a very maligned, confused, misunderstood Mr Crowley brought through for us. Love is the Law, Love under will. This concept is truth. Love is the Force of creation, unconditional pure YES!!!. From my understanding the original undoing of the Gordian knot was the first time created said no to creator.
So if you are not intimately involved in the raising of your children, don’t be surprised when they lack your values, and mindset.

I think I’m done with puking my delusions on those pulled to read it.

Tune in next time, ya never know what I might spew.

Thanks
Jack

Misunderstanding of Money is Root of Many Evils

Having most of my life been able to survive on very little money. Sorry Mom, I know you would have liked to me to be a bit more driven financially. I’ll cover why I didn’t pick up my Mom’s physical security issues in a separate entry.

People have made money as a thing to covet unto itself. This was never the intention of it’s creation, nor is it a use in harmony with the betterment of all.

Money was created, and is the duty of the sovereign (whatever that is where you are) to provide a mechanism for the transfer of goods, services, ideas what have you.

They wrote it right into the constitution, and if you scratch the surface of what they teach about the revolutionary settlement, yeah I said it, I’m not even sure we won the revolutionary war. Imagine what that would do to our so called debt.

The governing body is responsible by accepting the spot of governor to provide the means for trade to happen. This authority was stolen, abdicated, wheaseled  away by private corporations.

Let me elaborate cuz thats something most people already grasp that pretty easily.

Money, Currency, doesn’t exist, it’s a trust between the governed, and governing.
In the case of most modern fiat currencies it’s value is based on the populaces future production.  This is the consumer slavery everyone warns about, The value of the dollar in your pocket today is based on a forecast of the future productivity of the block the currency represents. There are other factors that are involved but at it’s core that is the big mystery.
Now when you have private banking institutions, which almost all of the so called modern societies currently have. What happens is private people are allowed to make something out of nothing, and then charge everyone for it. This is then repeated when the “money” is trickled down to the banks. with a 10 to 1 fractional reserve system the banks are allowed to print even more money on their own, in the form of loans and lines of credit what have you. The overall effect of this?
A group of people make up something that should belong to the people of the nation, or block it represents, and makes it their personal property. This is the ultimate in economic slavery. The “fat cat central bankers” imagine something into the world, charge you for doing it skimming right off the top, didn’t we go after the mob for doing that? or was it for not sharing with the OG’s. Then when they “lend” this imaginary stuff, these pieces of paper with stuff printed on it. The banks Keep everything dollar they are lent!!!
Let me repeat that, it’s important.
The Banks never lend out any of their own money!!!
This would be what the bible was talking about in Usery
Think MLM, pyramid scheme gone incredibly right. at least if you got in when the main central banks were formed, or happen to born into one of the families connected to them.

Don’t take my word for this stuff, look at history yourself.
Start with how many central banks have been in the “USA”
How about looking at the foundations of the colonies?
The history I use is of course the country I was born in, I mean they tried to drill the “story”
in my head so many times. That alone would be enough to make me question it.
Einstein told us nothing can be created or destroyed, only transformed.
Keep in mind if I was really going to have a case of hero worship at this stage of my unfoldment that man would be high on the list of potentials. Now I’m going disagree with him.
there is something that we I mean that in the broadest sense. Big Ups to the mayans this cycle for hipping the world to the ultimate lie.
We as conscious beings can create the vacuum. nature doesn’t do it, digital doesn’t do it.
Man does that one thing that no other order of creation even conceived of. The idea there could even in concept be nothing.
I know this have gone off into what some would call intellectual deep waters. I assure you nothing could be farther from the truth. Half the time I’m writing this I have no clue what is coming out until I’m reading along.

Truth is, what I have shared here is a small portion of my understanding as of the moment I was writing it.
portions of it may remain my truth eternally, or I may capriciously hop from perspective at my whim, as that is the gift we have been given from our creator, whatever you want to call it.
Choice is the one universal law that trumps all others, and here is the secret the mystics have been keeping about Choice, it can only be given!!!

I propose a radical rethink of how we approach the concept of money.
Money in and of itself serves no purpose.
Our real desire is for security, and the joy we see then events, and material comforts money is used for. Keep in mind that at some point something had to get turned into those green pieces of paper, or digits on a screen.
It might have been not getting see your child grow up.
or maybe it was your self respect, or dignity you traded.

We already settled on what you are, now we are negotiating price!

Cheating from my Perspective.

Let me start off again by saying, this is just my perspective, take whatever, and that it's the take of what from most of your perspectives would be considered pretty odd. I show no outward care for what most people covet, not even my relationships. I let things go when it seems I need them most. I hold on to things other people think is junk. I can appear simultaneously mad, and brilliant. This I brought on myself, you can find a brief background on my poetry site if your interested.

Relationships like everything living, and I mean that in the broadest possible terms have their own growth cycles. birth, growth, death/rebirth think phoenix and you'll get the concept I'm going for.

You can apply this to any aspect of your life, it's the basic framework we see for everything. we even teach it to our children, http://hasb.ro/RaOXTn thanks to all those visionary toy makers. Learn, Play, Grow.

To the point

People Cheat, because people cheat! if you didn't have people that cheated you couldn't by the defined duality created in the choice of syntax, people who are faithful.

Your Choice isn't in what your partner does, it's in making the choice to stay or not to stay!!!!

Thanks, much love PanseyBard

Putting my pieces into a Whole

Over the next few weeks I'll be adding some stuff I took down from my other site. This will be the first of that series of posts

Our collective everyday vocabulary is rife with linear time words. There is nothing good or bad about this. It is a choice, if we want to stay within linear time the words serve to keep our consciousness focused in a linear aspect. If on the other hand one wanted to break free of the linear time constraints, being aware, and mindful of the words one chooses becomes important. Notice how often you use words that refer to a time other than now. It might surprise you how much attention you pay to other times and places.

Panseybard


A major part of my unfolding has to do with reclaiming my power, and knowing as well as clearly stating to those around me, my boundaries.

This morning I was faced with a new test in this arena, as well as a challenge to my understanding of all as one. I awoke to my roommate passed out, and a person I didn't know drunk in my living area. This alone would be enough to make me cringe as alcohol isn't my favorite of things. I see it as a substance that makes people less aware of everything. Sometimes this is a desired effect. Most people I know just use it as an escape from parts of themselves they would rather not face. On top of this they had drank half my juice, and eaten some of my food. This violates my boundaries I should have at least been consulted. On the other hand, seeing it from a unity perspective, we were hungry so we ate.

This leaves me with a valuable look at where I'm at as far as seeing all as one. I could feel the frustration, and yet remain detached enough to not have it blow up into a fight between myself, and my roommate  I was able to point out what I didn't want in my reality, while maintaining my calm center. Can't be sure what effects this will have going forward, but at least I'm learning.

Panseybard