never made a video so I figured I'd give it a go
used wevideo, it works.
not overly impressive as a video, but I hope you get the ideas I was going for.
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Friday, June 14, 2013
Hierarchies and You
When I mention the word Hierarchy many of you will think of power structures, and the many Hierarchies in your own life. Some will rail against the very idea of something, or someone having power over them.
Simple idea, all Hierarchical structures started with intent of bringing equality.
It many have been a narrow vision of what equality means, but this was the intent.
The true job of any Hierarchy is to make itself obsolete. Raise it's members to the level of the highest.
This is all well and good, sounds like a pretty idea.
There is a flaw, this idea starts from a place of everyone having the same potential. It is very idea of equality in physical existence gumming up the works.
We all come in with our own expressed potentials. We are all crazy super computers doing on the fly calculations of amazing complexity. Does this mean we are equally capable of becoming mathematicians? We all could, but some would be going counter to their soul true expression within the context of this incarnation.
So how does this change the Hierarchy equation?
It makes the role of the Hierarchy to raise each in accordance to their abilities.
Looks like it's not at all.
More questions then Answers
Jack
aka
PanseyBard
Simple idea, all Hierarchical structures started with intent of bringing equality.
It many have been a narrow vision of what equality means, but this was the intent.
The true job of any Hierarchy is to make itself obsolete. Raise it's members to the level of the highest.
This is all well and good, sounds like a pretty idea.
There is a flaw, this idea starts from a place of everyone having the same potential. It is very idea of equality in physical existence gumming up the works.
We all come in with our own expressed potentials. We are all crazy super computers doing on the fly calculations of amazing complexity. Does this mean we are equally capable of becoming mathematicians? We all could, but some would be going counter to their soul true expression within the context of this incarnation.
So how does this change the Hierarchy equation?
It makes the role of the Hierarchy to raise each in accordance to their abilities.
Looks like it's not at all.
More questions then Answers
Jack
aka
PanseyBard
Monday, June 10, 2013
A Couple of Questions about Dark Matter
Heya Folks, I've been thinking alot about mass, gravity, and of course dark matter.
As always take everything I write with a grain of salt.
When you start to read about dark matter, you come across two major reasons for it's creation.
First is there must be something holding things together as the outside edges of solar systems, and galaxies rotate at the same rate as the inner edge. Leading to the idea that they should spin themselves apart.
Ok this makes sense to me if our solar system looks like this
When the center is stationary, and all the other bodies whirring around it, sure. I can buy we should fly apart. that the pull of gravity would weaken as you went outward on a plane from the sun.
The problem is, this image is only accurate from a certain perspective.
This takes no account of the suns movement, a more accurate version would look like this
This changes what would have to be taking place. The sun moves really fast, 486,000 mph or 782,000 kph roughly.
What does this mean?
it means our local gravitational center is moving, this movement through the fabric of space/time is what causes gravity. The mass of the sun warps this fabric as it pass through, causing an effect I've come to think of as "it's always downhill to the sun". It's important to take note that the suns direction of movement is close to a 90 degree angle to the planetary orbits. So essentially we are falling toward a point that is itself moving.
That changes everything, no longer is there any reason for a solar system or galaxy to spin itself apart, as all the parts are falling toward a center point, not spinning around one.
Now for the second reason we are told dark matter was invented, The Missing Mass problem.
We are told we can seem to find most of the mass of the universe, some numbers put the missing amount as high as 96%. We are finding some of it in celestial bodies we previously lacked the understanding to detect.
I'd say much of the missing mass is in the motion. There is a fabric of space/time this fabric would make up more of the universe then what we think of as matter. All matter is moving through this fabric, as it does so it picks up energy from this fabric, Much like throwing a baseball causes it to pick up energy, effectively increasing it's mass as long as it keeps moving.
So dark matter?
if it didn't exist before it does now
there is so much more this leads me, like polarization, a big concept for me is currently fractal recursive geometry.
Lol like my minds not warped enough.
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Flower Of Life T-Shirt (Google Affiliate Ad)
As always take everything I write with a grain of salt.
When you start to read about dark matter, you come across two major reasons for it's creation.
First is there must be something holding things together as the outside edges of solar systems, and galaxies rotate at the same rate as the inner edge. Leading to the idea that they should spin themselves apart.
Ok this makes sense to me if our solar system looks like this
When the center is stationary, and all the other bodies whirring around it, sure. I can buy we should fly apart. that the pull of gravity would weaken as you went outward on a plane from the sun.
The problem is, this image is only accurate from a certain perspective.
This takes no account of the suns movement, a more accurate version would look like this
This changes what would have to be taking place. The sun moves really fast, 486,000 mph or 782,000 kph roughly.
What does this mean?
it means our local gravitational center is moving, this movement through the fabric of space/time is what causes gravity. The mass of the sun warps this fabric as it pass through, causing an effect I've come to think of as "it's always downhill to the sun". It's important to take note that the suns direction of movement is close to a 90 degree angle to the planetary orbits. So essentially we are falling toward a point that is itself moving.
That changes everything, no longer is there any reason for a solar system or galaxy to spin itself apart, as all the parts are falling toward a center point, not spinning around one.
Now for the second reason we are told dark matter was invented, The Missing Mass problem.
We are told we can seem to find most of the mass of the universe, some numbers put the missing amount as high as 96%. We are finding some of it in celestial bodies we previously lacked the understanding to detect.
I'd say much of the missing mass is in the motion. There is a fabric of space/time this fabric would make up more of the universe then what we think of as matter. All matter is moving through this fabric, as it does so it picks up energy from this fabric, Much like throwing a baseball causes it to pick up energy, effectively increasing it's mass as long as it keeps moving.
So dark matter?
if it didn't exist before it does now
there is so much more this leads me, like polarization, a big concept for me is currently fractal recursive geometry.
Lol like my minds not warped enough.
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Flower Of Life T-Shirt (Google Affiliate Ad)
Friday, January 18, 2013
Love and Fear
Today I'd like to take a few lines to talk about something that has been bugging me lately. It's something I've talked about a bit before. It's the creation of polarities by our words. The one that has been getting me lately is love/fear. The fact that these are linked as polar opposites means they are actually part of a greater love/fear continuum. You lose one if you lose the other. Like everything it only has existence in relation to something else. This is the measurement problem of quantum physics. My personal issue is I see so many people calling the universal energy of creation Love. I understand there is only one thing, it's the labeling, syntax is important. How you say something is as important what your saying. To make this clear I'm not talking about spelling, or grammar. I'm talking about the choice of words, and the understanding involved in those choices. I guess I see it as the basic carrot, stick, you can work through reward, or punishment. Neither works all the time, but both work, understanding when to use each is the trick. In the beginning there was the word. Take care how you use yours, and what realities they create.
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Thursday, January 3, 2013
Flailing in the Dark
Howdy once again folks.
Today I'm gonna talk a bit about grown ups. The idea of an adult, I'm not talking physical maturity. What I'm talking about is the very concept of authority. Joe Rogan has a bit where he is called sir, and loses his shit over the ramifications of this revelation. By the way Mr. Rogan is hilarious, if you haven't seen any of his stand up, check it out. The idea presented in this bit is quite odd when you start to explore it in more depth.
I'm in my mid 40's, a self professed slacker, screw up. I've intentionally done as little as I had to do to maintain basic comforts. All of that is fine, it's an image I cultivated, makes an easy way to be dismissed. I looked at the world and decided I didn't really want anything to do with what most people think of as important. Even the base drive of self propagation has fallen victim to my loathing for what I see as world gone mad.
Let me explain the madness as I see it.
Everyone of us is born into this world helpless, and these giants provide for our every need. They even wipe our asses for us. They in all but name are our gods, we are made in their image. Honor your mother, and father. They even made the list. They are our all and everything. As we grow, and become more aware of our selves, and the world we inhabit. We start to come into contact with other giants, these are different. They arn't our gods, though some act as such. If we are lucky we only come in contact with benevolent giants, though obviously this isn't always the case. Now if our own personal gods are doing their job, they bring us to independence, or force it on us. For some the gods are very close, for others, remote. It's this idea of an external figure that often performs magical acts, knows things about tomorrow. They even convince us they really can know something, "daddy knows best", "don't argue with your mother, she's always right". So we mature actually believing people from the generations before us knew, and know what the story is. As if all our theories on the hows and whys of existence were more then just plausible ideas.
I find myself drawn back to Einstein's definition of insanity, "doing the same thing over and expecting different results". Lets apply this to the worlds current financial fiasco. We've been using a debt based system check out this link for the history of central banking in the U.S. central bank history. My point here is some people made it up, and we follow it like it's real, even once it no longer serves us. Look around you how many things are royally screwed up, yet we keep doing them. Well thanks to Einstein we can label ourselves, We are insane. To bring this back toward topic, Ever hear the question did God make man, or did man make God. It's really the standard chicken and the egg question. The answer is who knows, if you did know would it make you happy? I doubt it.
We, each of us creates our own gods, weather we admit it or not. Our gods are large and small, they become our reason for being. They are our everything and we strive to be everything for them. We disappoint them, and they disappoint us. We make and break covenants daily. We due to the condition we find ourselves have a tendency to constantly look outside for a God figure, a surrogate parent for when ours no longer fill the shoes. We are all just flailing in the dark, crying to be picked up by some bigger parental figure. Then one day people start looking at you like you are one of the magic ones that understand, and can make sense out of the chaos. Some people are so ingrained they actually believe their own hype, they believe they actually know something. Those people scare me. Sometimes it's even me.
Though I do my best to catch myself.
until my next crazy rant.
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Today I'm gonna talk a bit about grown ups. The idea of an adult, I'm not talking physical maturity. What I'm talking about is the very concept of authority. Joe Rogan has a bit where he is called sir, and loses his shit over the ramifications of this revelation. By the way Mr. Rogan is hilarious, if you haven't seen any of his stand up, check it out. The idea presented in this bit is quite odd when you start to explore it in more depth.
I'm in my mid 40's, a self professed slacker, screw up. I've intentionally done as little as I had to do to maintain basic comforts. All of that is fine, it's an image I cultivated, makes an easy way to be dismissed. I looked at the world and decided I didn't really want anything to do with what most people think of as important. Even the base drive of self propagation has fallen victim to my loathing for what I see as world gone mad.
Let me explain the madness as I see it.
Everyone of us is born into this world helpless, and these giants provide for our every need. They even wipe our asses for us. They in all but name are our gods, we are made in their image. Honor your mother, and father. They even made the list. They are our all and everything. As we grow, and become more aware of our selves, and the world we inhabit. We start to come into contact with other giants, these are different. They arn't our gods, though some act as such. If we are lucky we only come in contact with benevolent giants, though obviously this isn't always the case. Now if our own personal gods are doing their job, they bring us to independence, or force it on us. For some the gods are very close, for others, remote. It's this idea of an external figure that often performs magical acts, knows things about tomorrow. They even convince us they really can know something, "daddy knows best", "don't argue with your mother, she's always right". So we mature actually believing people from the generations before us knew, and know what the story is. As if all our theories on the hows and whys of existence were more then just plausible ideas.
I find myself drawn back to Einstein's definition of insanity, "doing the same thing over and expecting different results". Lets apply this to the worlds current financial fiasco. We've been using a debt based system check out this link for the history of central banking in the U.S. central bank history. My point here is some people made it up, and we follow it like it's real, even once it no longer serves us. Look around you how many things are royally screwed up, yet we keep doing them. Well thanks to Einstein we can label ourselves, We are insane. To bring this back toward topic, Ever hear the question did God make man, or did man make God. It's really the standard chicken and the egg question. The answer is who knows, if you did know would it make you happy? I doubt it.
We, each of us creates our own gods, weather we admit it or not. Our gods are large and small, they become our reason for being. They are our everything and we strive to be everything for them. We disappoint them, and they disappoint us. We make and break covenants daily. We due to the condition we find ourselves have a tendency to constantly look outside for a God figure, a surrogate parent for when ours no longer fill the shoes. We are all just flailing in the dark, crying to be picked up by some bigger parental figure. Then one day people start looking at you like you are one of the magic ones that understand, and can make sense out of the chaos. Some people are so ingrained they actually believe their own hype, they believe they actually know something. Those people scare me. Sometimes it's even me.
Though I do my best to catch myself.
until my next crazy rant.
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Friday, December 28, 2012
The Inequality of Political Correctness
I'd like to preface this by saying. I do not advocate discrimination on any basis. That being said, my place my rules, don't like em leave. I'm not saying someone is bad, or less then, it's all just choice. Be good to each other, that includes the person in the mirror.
Ok on to the show.
On the surface this sounds like a good idea, and on the surface it is. Who likes to be called names, or teased, or blackballed for silly things like race, nationality, religious, or sexual orientation. These are all false divisions and recognizing them as such is a nice step forward in the seeing and treating other as self. Seeing other as self is a huge step forward in solving many of the problems facing the world at large. It's pretty tough to watch yourself starve, let alone drop bombs on yourself. So from this perspective I applaud the effort, Like so many of our laws it's an attempt to legislate morality. This takes away choice, choice can not be taken it, like all the best we as humans can do, can only be given. Even so, if the PC movement would have stopped there, fine, I get it. If we are to progress socially Those divisions have no place. Unfortunately like so many good ideas, it became a thing unto itself. It moved into what in the gaming world is called homogenization. This is just nice fancy term for, make everything equal. Strange thing in the gaming world, making everything equal has the effect of making everything the same. This leads to a boring gaming world, all the skills and abilities even though they are called different things, and may have differing visual effects are the same.
If we all become identical we will not survive, there would be no difference, nothing to solve, or work toward. As I've said in an earlier post, our greatest advancements have come from our worst episodes of history. When so many band together and share, Amazing things happen. They happen through the bringing together of differing ideas, skill sets, and knowledge. This only possible through our differences, not our sameness. Celebrate both in equal measure if you want PC, celebrate being a member of humanity. Just remember to share the things that make you an individual as well. Those are the interesting bits anyway.
If I want to know about human nature I can look in the mirror. What I need is what makes you, you.
As always, don't listen to me.
Much Love
Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper
Ok on to the show.
On the surface this sounds like a good idea, and on the surface it is. Who likes to be called names, or teased, or blackballed for silly things like race, nationality, religious, or sexual orientation. These are all false divisions and recognizing them as such is a nice step forward in the seeing and treating other as self. Seeing other as self is a huge step forward in solving many of the problems facing the world at large. It's pretty tough to watch yourself starve, let alone drop bombs on yourself. So from this perspective I applaud the effort, Like so many of our laws it's an attempt to legislate morality. This takes away choice, choice can not be taken it, like all the best we as humans can do, can only be given. Even so, if the PC movement would have stopped there, fine, I get it. If we are to progress socially Those divisions have no place. Unfortunately like so many good ideas, it became a thing unto itself. It moved into what in the gaming world is called homogenization. This is just nice fancy term for, make everything equal. Strange thing in the gaming world, making everything equal has the effect of making everything the same. This leads to a boring gaming world, all the skills and abilities even though they are called different things, and may have differing visual effects are the same.
If we all become identical we will not survive, there would be no difference, nothing to solve, or work toward. As I've said in an earlier post, our greatest advancements have come from our worst episodes of history. When so many band together and share, Amazing things happen. They happen through the bringing together of differing ideas, skill sets, and knowledge. This only possible through our differences, not our sameness. Celebrate both in equal measure if you want PC, celebrate being a member of humanity. Just remember to share the things that make you an individual as well. Those are the interesting bits anyway.
If I want to know about human nature I can look in the mirror. What I need is what makes you, you.
As always, don't listen to me.
Much Love
Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper
Wednesday, December 26, 2012
Another Doomsday Down
Heya folks
Another armageddon date come and gone. The predictions of our demise are an interesting topic, we've had so many. Most blink by so quietly no one notices. I'm not concerned with the individual days, or the reason people have picked a particular day. I am interested in the idea, it's primal linking to our desire for survival.
We've had so many end of the world dates picked out, it's just another place we have become rubbed numb. We have such a deep seated fear of the loss of self, of individualized consciousness. All our religious, magical, or mystical teachings at some point cover the idea all are connected. I go even a step farther, there is only one thing. Having said that, I don't see an ultimate doomsday. I do see programming getting better and better at freaking people out about the idea.
How many times does it take, before someone finally gets it right. I'm not predicting anything here. I'm saying we humans will bring it on ourselves. We came up with the idea out of our owns hopes, and fears. We desire to be important enough to wipe out. Simultaneously, we see ourselves as flawed fundamentally unworthy creatures.
Let me make it clear, I don't actually believe there is any outside malevolent force working night and day to destroy humanity. That would be a massive time sink. What I'm saying is we are our own worst enemy, we have no need for some external boogeyman. We create plenty of our own. How many tries will it take before someone gets it close enough to our concept of the end of the world.
What kinda events would even make the cut, what % of the population has to die to qualify.
I don't concern myself with global, or larger scale disasters, they happen all the time. Stars go nova, asteroids hit things, these are just everyday events on scales we don't always feel comfortable looking from.
Even our sun will eventually eat us, these are natural processes.
What I do concern myself with is how programmed we are globally, and that part of that programming is the end of our world.
If god didn't put a sell by date on our carton, we will make it up. It's along the lines of, if god didn't exist man would make one up. We have an innate need for things larger then us, making sure everything is ok. Funny thing about being a child, you don't have alot of say in what happens in your life. Even as adults we put this pseudo parent figure sitting some where watching us. Rewarding us for getting good grades in our cosmic classroom. Punishing us for our transgressions against some law, so far removed from our current existence as to be almost meaningless.
So am I concerned about an expiration date placed on us by our "creator"?
Not at all, if there is one, it's for a purpose.
That being said I do worry someone with that "perfect storm" the odds are stacked against us, even science says it's a matter of when, not if. Well if it's bound to happen eventually, whats wrong with now.
Those are the people that worry me, and even beyond that I worry about the people that actively work to bring about our end. We've gone so far as to make it a romantic adventure. Understanding mass psychology from the twisted perspective of my mind. I can see we are creating our own Shiva as destroyer.
It's not a question of if someone will try to kill us all, it's just a matter of when.
As always: don't listen to me.
Jack
Aka PanseyBard digital pied piper
Sunday, December 23, 2012
Odds and Ends
This isn't a new image, but there is an idea here that I feel a pull toward. If you imaging yourself as any of the rays that extend off the central pentagon. It's pretty easy to notice that you would never be in direct opposition to anyone else. To take this concept a step farther, imagine this as a round table set up. With mirrors set up so you would see yourself as being opposite yourself, we are the only ones standing in our way. The less obvious would be showing you as one of the points forming a trinity, pointing out your role for your cross table neighbors.
As a tie in, I'd like to switch over to the Laws of Attraction, and how our verbal, and mental, emotional syntax effect how this law is working in our lives. The law is working regardless, it's working for everyone, regardless of individual awareness. Creation, God, all that is, whatever you want to call it, is a yes machine. Try this for me, I've posted this before, but it's such an easy illustration I'll reuse it here. Do a search on "not red shoes" or "not anything you want" what your going to notice is this. It's all red shoes, the search engine isn't actually designed to handle negatives, creation works much the same.
This is part of the syntax of Law of Attraction. When you start paying attention to what your putting out into creation really is saying, it starts to clear up some of the less desired effects people get from the application of this law.
Check out this one, your friend asks you where, and what you'd like to have for lunch. Your response is "I don't care". You just really opened up the range for what you could find yourself putting in your mouth.
Self programming, We have an aspect of us that is very much machine logic running on auto pilot. Some of you may balk at this idea, I'd ask you if you ever drove home, and really couldn't account for the drive. Maybe you were thinking about that party on Friday, or the deadline at work. So the driver knows it job, and did it more or less without your supervision. This opens a can of worms up most western thought generally avoids, that your not your body, or even your mind, or heart. These are aspects of some greater whole we have only begun to see, and even than usually through inference. So the driver learned to drive, and is then more or less able to handle the task, with less then your full attention. It's making choices based on it's programming. Seeing this programming is happening all the time, and the only true way to stop it is isolation. You can mitigate the effects through your awareness of them. Be aware of the messages your taking into the self.
as always make up your own mind
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Tuesday, December 18, 2012
Dreamer, or the Dreamed, or Npc vrs PC
Many of you get the idea of Dreamer, and the dreamed. A bit less well known outside gaming circles is the mmorpg equivalent, PC or NPC. Those refer to player characters, or non-player characters. In a story, or game you have the characters that are living the story, or actively playing the game. Then you have the characters that are there to help the plot lines move along. This isn't really a new concept, it links back to our original understanding of the fundamental nature of existence. This idea can be seen everywhere, anywhere there is story you can find it. Now what does this mean for us as an individualized aspect of all that is?
It comes down again to choice.
In every moment of this experience, each of us is the center of our story, game, movie which ever conceptualization works for you. Funny thing is most of us allow others to control the direction of the story/game we are the main character of. Much of this ties into the Laws of Attraction, see Oprah's website if you want a look at how main stream these ideas have become. Really all of us are both, we all have times when we are driving the story. Pushing onward being driven, following our passions. We also have times of introspection, when we are much less active externally.
Become aware of the roles your playing, once your aware you can begin to make conscious choices.
I'm not saying to change your role, just be aware your playing a role, feel how this role fits you. See how this role is effecting the person your playing it for. Then make a choice if it's a role you want to continue in, or is it a role you need to change or wake away from.
So are you a PC, or an NPC?
just like in the matrix, everyone is potentially an agent.
the fun part is deciding in the moment the role you feel like playing.
I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite songs, and video's
Jack
aka PanseyBard
It comes down again to choice.
In every moment of this experience, each of us is the center of our story, game, movie which ever conceptualization works for you. Funny thing is most of us allow others to control the direction of the story/game we are the main character of. Much of this ties into the Laws of Attraction, see Oprah's website if you want a look at how main stream these ideas have become. Really all of us are both, we all have times when we are driving the story. Pushing onward being driven, following our passions. We also have times of introspection, when we are much less active externally.
Become aware of the roles your playing, once your aware you can begin to make conscious choices.
I'm not saying to change your role, just be aware your playing a role, feel how this role fits you. See how this role is effecting the person your playing it for. Then make a choice if it's a role you want to continue in, or is it a role you need to change or wake away from.
So are you a PC, or an NPC?
just like in the matrix, everyone is potentially an agent.
the fun part is deciding in the moment the role you feel like playing.
I'd like to leave you with one of my favorite songs, and video's
Jack
aka PanseyBard
Thursday, December 6, 2012
Be the Story
I wanna bring in a slightly different twist to creating your life from the perspective of storytelling.
Depending on who you listen to people will tell you there are X number of different story plots.
I really liked this article on the topic How many stories are there. I agree the divisions are arbitrary, we create the divisions. This is harmony with my understanding that we create duality by creating divisions.
Even the idea of there being one story doesn't fit quite right for me. I see the one story weaving through every life I examine. I've come to the point where I still know nothing, understand even less, and sit in stunned awe.
When I look for the story, what I see is potential, when I look into the void of spaces between spaces I see potential. Where ever I look I see potential. For me, with the vista I'm ready to see. Beyond being creator, and dictating my experience of a potential I've admitted I have yet to understand. This space outside of the drama, dharma, maya, Whatever you have labeled it as, is where I find my true comfort. It's the place where I can see you for you. Not be in the state where I'm forcing you to play a role in drama. This is the space where your divinity becomes clear to me. I see the role you desire me to play in your creation. When I'm especially transparent I even see the roles your willing to play in a drama of my making.
This space is the space of wonder, this space is the potential from which story springs. It doesn't exist other then in fleeting moments stolen by those brave, crazy, lucky, or stupid enough to stumble into it.
This is the space where dreams are made, funny thing is while your there it's not where your dreams are made. This is the space reserved for the mystic, the shaman, king maker. From this no space, all potential, perfect zero sum null, there is no projection. Dreams are plucked from space, like lighting is pulled by the earth from the potential in the sky. The space where I am you, for I no longer exist. I lose myself, give myself over to your journey through OZ. I get to play the parts you allow me in the unfolding of the story only you can tell. By my surrender to your will I get a glimpse of my own nature, reflected in the roles you assign me.
These are only roles, costumes I don at your pleasure. When I am able to sustain this space within me, This blank slate approach, or being the un-carved block, doesn't define me. I've already defined myself by finding this space. This place where nothingallthingsomethingneverthing, I become limitless potential, I am nothing because you haven't given me a role. I heard once that Kanye West said something to the effect, if the bible was being written today I'd be in it. He of course got slammed by many. I saw the over inflated ego. I also see that as a healthy ego, creating a mythic experience. It's the go big, or go home mentality taken to the global scale. The context is of course very different. People don't remember the teachings of Jesus because of what he said about himself. People remember the teachings because they are worth remembering.
Seems to me the line from Star Wars A New Hope would fit here in twisty sort way
"Sand People are easily Frightened, but They will soon be Back, and in Greater Numbers"
Thank you all for the stories.
Jack
Depending on who you listen to people will tell you there are X number of different story plots.
I really liked this article on the topic How many stories are there. I agree the divisions are arbitrary, we create the divisions. This is harmony with my understanding that we create duality by creating divisions.
Even the idea of there being one story doesn't fit quite right for me. I see the one story weaving through every life I examine. I've come to the point where I still know nothing, understand even less, and sit in stunned awe.
When I look for the story, what I see is potential, when I look into the void of spaces between spaces I see potential. Where ever I look I see potential. For me, with the vista I'm ready to see. Beyond being creator, and dictating my experience of a potential I've admitted I have yet to understand. This space outside of the drama, dharma, maya, Whatever you have labeled it as, is where I find my true comfort. It's the place where I can see you for you. Not be in the state where I'm forcing you to play a role in drama. This is the space where your divinity becomes clear to me. I see the role you desire me to play in your creation. When I'm especially transparent I even see the roles your willing to play in a drama of my making.
This space is the space of wonder, this space is the potential from which story springs. It doesn't exist other then in fleeting moments stolen by those brave, crazy, lucky, or stupid enough to stumble into it.
This is the space where dreams are made, funny thing is while your there it's not where your dreams are made. This is the space reserved for the mystic, the shaman, king maker. From this no space, all potential, perfect zero sum null, there is no projection. Dreams are plucked from space, like lighting is pulled by the earth from the potential in the sky. The space where I am you, for I no longer exist. I lose myself, give myself over to your journey through OZ. I get to play the parts you allow me in the unfolding of the story only you can tell. By my surrender to your will I get a glimpse of my own nature, reflected in the roles you assign me.
These are only roles, costumes I don at your pleasure. When I am able to sustain this space within me, This blank slate approach, or being the un-carved block, doesn't define me. I've already defined myself by finding this space. This place where nothingallthingsomethingneverthing, I become limitless potential, I am nothing because you haven't given me a role. I heard once that Kanye West said something to the effect, if the bible was being written today I'd be in it. He of course got slammed by many. I saw the over inflated ego. I also see that as a healthy ego, creating a mythic experience. It's the go big, or go home mentality taken to the global scale. The context is of course very different. People don't remember the teachings of Jesus because of what he said about himself. People remember the teachings because they are worth remembering.
Seems to me the line from Star Wars A New Hope would fit here in twisty sort way
"Sand People are easily Frightened, but They will soon be Back, and in Greater Numbers"
Thank you all for the stories.
Jack
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Your Life, Make it Your Story
Going to take a slightly different tack.
Pretty much everyone has read a book, watched a movie, played make believe.
In doing so, how ever outlandish your being shown different modes of behavior
for a variety of situations, or roles you might find yourself in. In a sense almost
everyone has while being programmed by the media to become one thing or
another, have at the same time been learning to identify with all of it.
Once you are able to identify with a character role, or archetype, you open up the
possibility of the experience of playing, that archetype, or role opens up to you,
in your physical experience. This concept is really just a different take on the ideas of
Napoleon Hill
These ideas have morphed into the Laws of Attraction. These tie into the concept of your life as a story, because you become the director/star of your own story. To go a little deeper, you are also the casting director. This ties into my earlier post, Tips and Tricks of the Law of Attraction.. As the Director/Creator or the story staring you, who/what are playing the varied roles you as the Director/Creator have defined to tell your story need to be identified. This allows you as the Director/Creator to see if this is a compelling role in your story, and if so, is the person/thing filling the role currently right for the role. A note on identifying the roles people are filling, versus the true nature of the person/thing filling that role. In the world we find ourselves quite often people will present themselves as one way, when they act in another. Other people can't lie to you, but you can lie to yourself. Once you understand we are all playing out the stories, in their many permutations, as well as practicing identifying the roles people are playing in yours. It will naturally follow that you will begin to see the role your playing in others. This will show you that all the roles are available to you to choose from. I would advise caution here, be aware of what you are choosing as a role.
Donning the garb of the wrong archetype in the wrong situation will bring unforeseen results. It might have your story ending rather abruptly. think "it's better to burn out, then fade away".
We are all here to be the star of our individual life, see others as they are. If your role in their story is to teach a lesson, teach it as gently as possible. Every story has it's lessons, and I'm pretty sure you'd like yours to be as gentle as possible.
Write a great story, everyone is watching.
Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper
Pretty much everyone has read a book, watched a movie, played make believe.
In doing so, how ever outlandish your being shown different modes of behavior
for a variety of situations, or roles you might find yourself in. In a sense almost
everyone has while being programmed by the media to become one thing or
another, have at the same time been learning to identify with all of it.
Once you are able to identify with a character role, or archetype, you open up the
possibility of the experience of playing, that archetype, or role opens up to you,
in your physical experience. This concept is really just a different take on the ideas of
Napoleon Hill
These ideas have morphed into the Laws of Attraction. These tie into the concept of your life as a story, because you become the director/star of your own story. To go a little deeper, you are also the casting director. This ties into my earlier post, Tips and Tricks of the Law of Attraction.. As the Director/Creator or the story staring you, who/what are playing the varied roles you as the Director/Creator have defined to tell your story need to be identified. This allows you as the Director/Creator to see if this is a compelling role in your story, and if so, is the person/thing filling the role currently right for the role. A note on identifying the roles people are filling, versus the true nature of the person/thing filling that role. In the world we find ourselves quite often people will present themselves as one way, when they act in another. Other people can't lie to you, but you can lie to yourself. Once you understand we are all playing out the stories, in their many permutations, as well as practicing identifying the roles people are playing in yours. It will naturally follow that you will begin to see the role your playing in others. This will show you that all the roles are available to you to choose from. I would advise caution here, be aware of what you are choosing as a role.
Donning the garb of the wrong archetype in the wrong situation will bring unforeseen results. It might have your story ending rather abruptly. think "it's better to burn out, then fade away".
We are all here to be the star of our individual life, see others as they are. If your role in their story is to teach a lesson, teach it as gently as possible. Every story has it's lessons, and I'm pretty sure you'd like yours to be as gentle as possible.
Write a great story, everyone is watching.
Jack
aka PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper
Saturday, December 1, 2012
Are We in Hell?
This Question might not be as outlandish as it seems.
I'm not saying I actually believe we are in hell, my understanding is all things are relational in nature. One mans trash is another mans treasure, and all that. As all real truth this adage applies on many levels.
So what would cause me to ask a question, and write a blog about something I, off the bat tell you I don't believe? My understanding of how creation works drives me.
As I've stated I've grown up in a western culture, so on the surface I appear to hold many western values.
This may or may not be true, you'd have to dig deeper to find out. That foundation, as pretty a picture as it paints is like everything I've found in this world, either partially, or wholly misleading.
Foundations of Western Religious/Mystical beliefs.
People pretty much know this story, and some people actually do. Most just think they do. Judaism, and Catholicism are rooted in mystical teachings of the Kabbalah, there are several spellings so forgive me if mine offends you. By the way if that part offended you, you might not want to keep reading.
A bit about how I came at this. I loved lsd in my twenties, I really enjoyed popping a 10 strip, and meditating for hours. One of the understandings that were revealed to me was a theory of numbers based on relationships between individualized consciousness. Basically what would form solid circles of people naturally, and what groupings would splinter into smaller groups, or attract more people to balance them.
When I explained my insight to someone they asked me if I had heard of the Kabbalah, cuz I just explained to them the framework for it. I was an early to mid twenties kid that grew up in an affluent area, selling pot and other "hippy drugs" cuz I couldn't really keep a normal job, nor did I really enjoy them. Of course I hadn't heard of it. But it didn't take long till I was learning about it.
The Crux of the Matter.
Ok hopefully you get the idea that I'm coming from a place of having at least a basic understanding of the subject, and I might at the very least be qualified to ask questions.
First question: how do we define hell.
This one for many true believers will be tough, but the definition that has most stuck with me is this.Hell is being as far removed from your reason for being as you can get and still remember it's why you are.
Second Question: Where on our map is God?
This is much easier, They tell us God is on the top of the map, numero uno top of the woods baby.sorry my irreverence seems to slip out at the most opportune moments.
Third Question: Where on our map are We?
This is also an easy one. We are told we are on the bottom of the map. pat on the back if you got where I was going before now!Conclusion: We are in Hell
By the map we in the west have been given, and the traditions we have been taught. WE LIVE IN HELL!!gives a new spin on the half truths, and misdirection's that seem to permeate our culture.
or to the idea that our leaders might engage in practices most of us would find hard to imagine.
Please keep in mind this isn't my map, this isn't actually even my understanding. I'm a gamer at heart. Gamers finish the game, and move on to the next. It's what I've learned to be. Taken to the extreme of power gaming you enter the world of Min, Maxing, your corporate people should love this one. It's the number crunching to get the maximum effect from a given set of circumstances, with the least amount of effort. It's gaming math geek style. Now I never took it that far, Those people were my friends. I could hang with them, I just didn't want to go pro, that level of dedication to any one thing is what takes to be among the best. But when it comes down to it, I don't care about being the best, I just like being entertained.
Follow your own pattern.
Much Love
Jack Baldwin aka
PanseyBard Digital Pied Piper.
Thursday, November 29, 2012
Sex....another of our dirty little not so secrets
I'm not gonna try to define sex, I might not always be to bright, but my name isn't mud either.
From my perspective, and lets keep in mind sex is something I've been without for longer then I care to admit. Oh I've had offers, none that I could accept with a clear heart, and mind. Yes I'm a guy who hasn't had sex in way to long, and I've turned it down several times, Shocker I know.
I'm messed up, I don't think like most people I meet, this isn't news, pay attention, when someone is not like you. You might just see something of yourself you didn't know existed.
I'm gonna say some really out there things in the next little bit. I don't expect you to believe me, nor would I want you to. This is my junk attached to sex that I've learned from everyone around me. Now if you choose you can watch me spill it, as much as you want. if this gets views, and comments I'll keep adding.
I'm me all messed up, and loving it.
I was very sexual from a really early age. I remember my Mom catching me with my hands down my girlfriends pants at 5. Bless my mom she handled it pretty well, asked me to step in hall. Once we got there she asked if I knew what I was doing. My girlfriend happened to be 12, it wasn't what was happening that gave my Mother pause, it was being sure I was a willing participant or not. I was a very willing participant so ya know. I convinced my babysitter to teach me how french kiss at the same age. Damned if I can figure out how I did it, beautiful Filipino Girl, can't recall her name, but I still dream of her hair. That would be where I learned my weakness for Asian women, I have weakness for them all actually. I can be mid steam talking about quantum physics with someone, a beautiful woman walks by, and I forget my name.
The only time I have had an extended period of life where I didn't have a girlfriend for lack of a better term, has been recently. We've all gone crazy!!!!
The expectations are insane. Illustrating my point is something that happened to me recently. Bumped into a female friend I haven't seen for awhile, and she invited me over to have dinner with her, her kids, a mutual friend, and his kid. When I get there, she is on the phone constantly with new boyfriend's roommate. They had only been seeing eachother for a few months, don't even live in the same town, I even during the course of the evening got her to admit she didn't even feel this guy was the one for her. Yet she is on the phone telling him that if he doesn't show up at her house like now, that it's over. This guy doesn't even live in the same state. For me this was insane, if anyone tried to pull that crap on me I'd have said later bitch, have a nice life on the first call. I even told her that, and it was like it didn't even register. This whole episode was over? you might have guessed it would be social media, thank you Facebook. Yeah that's right he hadn't changed his Facebook pictures, and even though she knew he didn't use it much, it didn't matter. Not to mention the fact, both of them had been in long term relationships when they started seeing each other.
The kicker to this story is the very next day I run into her ex, yes the one she was with when she started seeing her new man. Yes she thinks of them as possessions.
Well being the friendly out going person I am, going into a conversation already in progress, I break in with, Hey I hung out with your ex last night. This was the best, and worst thing I could have said. If I am an evil genius, which I have been called, even recently, and some people called me Simon Bar-sinister after an unfortunate hair cut in high school. Now if he had left it at that, no problem I was in the conversation, and he would have shown he was over his ex. He proceeded to grill me over every detail, and I let him, just giving him enough with each answer to get him to ask the next question. Horrible as it seems, when I realized how hooked he was on someone I knew couldn't return those feelings, I was actually trying to help him, best of intentions and all that. He gets so worked up he eventually excused himself, leaving his 2 co-workers, and I to discuss how I had just devastated him. He went home, and proceeded to call her repeated, then wrist a nasty email. I of course got the call from her the next day reaming me out for exposing the secrets of her love life. My thought was, and is this, if you don't want me in your crap, then don't invite me. Once you invite me, it's not your crap anymore. Your basically saying my crap is to much for me to handle on my own, will you please help me handle it. Well if your gonna do that expect it to be handled in ways your not used to.
I also was told by one of his co-workers, a beautiful young woman named Angel, that Karma was gonna come get me for what I had done to him. I had to explain to her, that she had no way of knowing that I wasn't being Karma's bitch for the outset, and that in viewing the event from her perspective might not be what was happening. Side note, I don't claim to be karma bitch, but I wouldn't be surprised if she has used me like the slut I really am.
Ok back to boogity boogity. Sorry I tend to go quantum when I'm typing. It's the sound byte attention span I have been programmed with, combined with a quantum aspect I haven't really grasped fully.
I have problems with sex, I'm told to respect women, which I do. I love women, I was that kid in elementary school that did the plays just cuz the gender ratio was amazing. Yes I'm that messed up.
I see beautiful women everywhere I look, and they are so exposed I can't even help but look. When I get caught looking, it's either a hell yes that looks good to me too, or a you should be ashamed of yourself for even looking. Seriously, I'm a Man, I'm very visually stimulated, if you write on your ass I'm going to take my time reading it, even if it just says pink. If it says juicy more then likely if I agree I'm gonna take it to the next thought, taking a bite out of it. In other words if you don't want me to look don't display. Note to parents, please use a little guidance in how you allow your daughters to go out in public. I know this is a touchy area, I understand they are budding young women exploring what it means to be a sexually attractive being. I even know talking about it is deemed inappropriate by the main stream culture I live in. They tell me it's not ok to lust after women, then splash female flesh of all ages before my eyes all day long. The culture I live in I call it a death cult, worships youth. From my perspective it's a fear of their own mortality driving them, but that's another story. When I look around almost half of what I see I'd like to sleep with, if it wouldn't damage them, or myself in the doing. It's the ultimate expression of my worship of the divine feminine made flesh.
I feel part of my problem and it's prolly true for other men as well, stems from the being carried in womb, raised by women. It puts me in a position of having grown up watching relationships as man, filtered through the perspective of a woman. The cruel joke here is, though my female friends tell me how much I actually understand women, biology tricks them into thinking I am not suitable mating material. Yup that's right everyone knows it, but they don't seem to get the implications. I'm talking about the women who just can't help fall for the bad boys. Even see it in celebrities, women dig a bad boy. Little secret that's biological trick being played on you. Back before civilization as we know it, the best chance for the survival of.off spring from the female perspective was to get the biggest baddest guy around, his genes combined with yours give your offspring, your dna's best chance to be represented in the next generation. This worked for awhile, we don't live in that world anymore, though the biological drives are still there. The shift is happening geeks are starting to be looked at as sexy for their very geekness. For men of the same era, things were a bit different.
If you proved you were the coolest cat in the jungle no one questioned you taking what you wanted. Not even if it wasn't yours to take. We also see this lingering around. This was due to male wanting to make sure his genetics were dominate.
There is an aspect of this that I don't see talked about much so I'd like to take a moment to do so.
With women carrying the children inside their bodies, it sets up an odd situations. you don't need a close to 50/50 gender ratio to provide for continuation of species, or to ensure genetic diversity. I'm sure somewhere someone took the time to figure it out, but I'd be willing to bet it's in the 12 to 1 range, just a hunch based on a bigger pattern. Think of a lion pride, and apply the concepts to harems, and the like. Once again the stuff that got us here becomes the very things we need to understand if we are to evolve as consciousness.
Once again I got diverted by my own wandering mind.
I guess it just comes down to people are crazy, we don't even really understand what drives us, and why.
Most of us are so busy with our so called everyday lives we never even stop to ponder the why's.
I guess my biggest hang up with sex is the after effect. I had a bit of time between two, five+ relationships where I didn't want anything with "love". People thought of me as a player, I didn't. I always thought of a player as someone that tricked people into a sexual encounter. I never did that, I was totally honest with the women I met. I told them flat out we could hang out, have fun but that was it. I didn't want to be their man, and I was looking to possess any woman. If they wanted to hang out great, if not great. What I didn't yet get was, I was telling them "you can't have me". This triggers a response in people. Think Jedi mind tricks.
All that stuff going around using psychological triggers to elicit a response in someone is true. The caveat being if they are aware, they will catch you! What happens from there is anyone's guess.
To wrap things up, because I've been writing long enough to forget why I started, let me say this.
The culture I have grown up in celebrates sex, and uses it to sell everything, including sex itself. The morality of the culture I've grown up in tells me sex except under certain conditions is a sin, and punishable by my creator.
Seriously? you know how screwed that would make me. I have no desire to meet the obligations for morally approved sex, as set forth by my culture. I also have no desire to remain celibate, This leaves me a dilemma only a woman can solve. LMAO
Much Love.
Remember
No matter how good someone looks to you
Somewhere, Someone
Is sick of their shit
poof, I'm mythology
PanseyBard
From my perspective, and lets keep in mind sex is something I've been without for longer then I care to admit. Oh I've had offers, none that I could accept with a clear heart, and mind. Yes I'm a guy who hasn't had sex in way to long, and I've turned it down several times, Shocker I know.
I'm messed up, I don't think like most people I meet, this isn't news, pay attention, when someone is not like you. You might just see something of yourself you didn't know existed.
I'm gonna say some really out there things in the next little bit. I don't expect you to believe me, nor would I want you to. This is my junk attached to sex that I've learned from everyone around me. Now if you choose you can watch me spill it, as much as you want. if this gets views, and comments I'll keep adding.
I'm me all messed up, and loving it.
I was very sexual from a really early age. I remember my Mom catching me with my hands down my girlfriends pants at 5. Bless my mom she handled it pretty well, asked me to step in hall. Once we got there she asked if I knew what I was doing. My girlfriend happened to be 12, it wasn't what was happening that gave my Mother pause, it was being sure I was a willing participant or not. I was a very willing participant so ya know. I convinced my babysitter to teach me how french kiss at the same age. Damned if I can figure out how I did it, beautiful Filipino Girl, can't recall her name, but I still dream of her hair. That would be where I learned my weakness for Asian women, I have weakness for them all actually. I can be mid steam talking about quantum physics with someone, a beautiful woman walks by, and I forget my name.
The only time I have had an extended period of life where I didn't have a girlfriend for lack of a better term, has been recently. We've all gone crazy!!!!
The expectations are insane. Illustrating my point is something that happened to me recently. Bumped into a female friend I haven't seen for awhile, and she invited me over to have dinner with her, her kids, a mutual friend, and his kid. When I get there, she is on the phone constantly with new boyfriend's roommate. They had only been seeing eachother for a few months, don't even live in the same town, I even during the course of the evening got her to admit she didn't even feel this guy was the one for her. Yet she is on the phone telling him that if he doesn't show up at her house like now, that it's over. This guy doesn't even live in the same state. For me this was insane, if anyone tried to pull that crap on me I'd have said later bitch, have a nice life on the first call. I even told her that, and it was like it didn't even register. This whole episode was over? you might have guessed it would be social media, thank you Facebook. Yeah that's right he hadn't changed his Facebook pictures, and even though she knew he didn't use it much, it didn't matter. Not to mention the fact, both of them had been in long term relationships when they started seeing each other.
The kicker to this story is the very next day I run into her ex, yes the one she was with when she started seeing her new man. Yes she thinks of them as possessions.
Well being the friendly out going person I am, going into a conversation already in progress, I break in with, Hey I hung out with your ex last night. This was the best, and worst thing I could have said. If I am an evil genius, which I have been called, even recently, and some people called me Simon Bar-sinister after an unfortunate hair cut in high school. Now if he had left it at that, no problem I was in the conversation, and he would have shown he was over his ex. He proceeded to grill me over every detail, and I let him, just giving him enough with each answer to get him to ask the next question. Horrible as it seems, when I realized how hooked he was on someone I knew couldn't return those feelings, I was actually trying to help him, best of intentions and all that. He gets so worked up he eventually excused himself, leaving his 2 co-workers, and I to discuss how I had just devastated him. He went home, and proceeded to call her repeated, then wrist a nasty email. I of course got the call from her the next day reaming me out for exposing the secrets of her love life. My thought was, and is this, if you don't want me in your crap, then don't invite me. Once you invite me, it's not your crap anymore. Your basically saying my crap is to much for me to handle on my own, will you please help me handle it. Well if your gonna do that expect it to be handled in ways your not used to.
I also was told by one of his co-workers, a beautiful young woman named Angel, that Karma was gonna come get me for what I had done to him. I had to explain to her, that she had no way of knowing that I wasn't being Karma's bitch for the outset, and that in viewing the event from her perspective might not be what was happening. Side note, I don't claim to be karma bitch, but I wouldn't be surprised if she has used me like the slut I really am.
Ok back to boogity boogity. Sorry I tend to go quantum when I'm typing. It's the sound byte attention span I have been programmed with, combined with a quantum aspect I haven't really grasped fully.
I have problems with sex, I'm told to respect women, which I do. I love women, I was that kid in elementary school that did the plays just cuz the gender ratio was amazing. Yes I'm that messed up.
I see beautiful women everywhere I look, and they are so exposed I can't even help but look. When I get caught looking, it's either a hell yes that looks good to me too, or a you should be ashamed of yourself for even looking. Seriously, I'm a Man, I'm very visually stimulated, if you write on your ass I'm going to take my time reading it, even if it just says pink. If it says juicy more then likely if I agree I'm gonna take it to the next thought, taking a bite out of it. In other words if you don't want me to look don't display. Note to parents, please use a little guidance in how you allow your daughters to go out in public. I know this is a touchy area, I understand they are budding young women exploring what it means to be a sexually attractive being. I even know talking about it is deemed inappropriate by the main stream culture I live in. They tell me it's not ok to lust after women, then splash female flesh of all ages before my eyes all day long. The culture I live in I call it a death cult, worships youth. From my perspective it's a fear of their own mortality driving them, but that's another story. When I look around almost half of what I see I'd like to sleep with, if it wouldn't damage them, or myself in the doing. It's the ultimate expression of my worship of the divine feminine made flesh.
I feel part of my problem and it's prolly true for other men as well, stems from the being carried in womb, raised by women. It puts me in a position of having grown up watching relationships as man, filtered through the perspective of a woman. The cruel joke here is, though my female friends tell me how much I actually understand women, biology tricks them into thinking I am not suitable mating material. Yup that's right everyone knows it, but they don't seem to get the implications. I'm talking about the women who just can't help fall for the bad boys. Even see it in celebrities, women dig a bad boy. Little secret that's biological trick being played on you. Back before civilization as we know it, the best chance for the survival of.off spring from the female perspective was to get the biggest baddest guy around, his genes combined with yours give your offspring, your dna's best chance to be represented in the next generation. This worked for awhile, we don't live in that world anymore, though the biological drives are still there. The shift is happening geeks are starting to be looked at as sexy for their very geekness. For men of the same era, things were a bit different.
If you proved you were the coolest cat in the jungle no one questioned you taking what you wanted. Not even if it wasn't yours to take. We also see this lingering around. This was due to male wanting to make sure his genetics were dominate.
There is an aspect of this that I don't see talked about much so I'd like to take a moment to do so.
With women carrying the children inside their bodies, it sets up an odd situations. you don't need a close to 50/50 gender ratio to provide for continuation of species, or to ensure genetic diversity. I'm sure somewhere someone took the time to figure it out, but I'd be willing to bet it's in the 12 to 1 range, just a hunch based on a bigger pattern. Think of a lion pride, and apply the concepts to harems, and the like. Once again the stuff that got us here becomes the very things we need to understand if we are to evolve as consciousness.
Once again I got diverted by my own wandering mind.
I guess it just comes down to people are crazy, we don't even really understand what drives us, and why.
Most of us are so busy with our so called everyday lives we never even stop to ponder the why's.
I guess my biggest hang up with sex is the after effect. I had a bit of time between two, five+ relationships where I didn't want anything with "love". People thought of me as a player, I didn't. I always thought of a player as someone that tricked people into a sexual encounter. I never did that, I was totally honest with the women I met. I told them flat out we could hang out, have fun but that was it. I didn't want to be their man, and I was looking to possess any woman. If they wanted to hang out great, if not great. What I didn't yet get was, I was telling them "you can't have me". This triggers a response in people. Think Jedi mind tricks.
All that stuff going around using psychological triggers to elicit a response in someone is true. The caveat being if they are aware, they will catch you! What happens from there is anyone's guess.
To wrap things up, because I've been writing long enough to forget why I started, let me say this.
The culture I have grown up in celebrates sex, and uses it to sell everything, including sex itself. The morality of the culture I've grown up in tells me sex except under certain conditions is a sin, and punishable by my creator.
Seriously? you know how screwed that would make me. I have no desire to meet the obligations for morally approved sex, as set forth by my culture. I also have no desire to remain celibate, This leaves me a dilemma only a woman can solve. LMAO
Much Love.
Remember
No matter how good someone looks to you
Somewhere, Someone
Is sick of their shit
poof, I'm mythology
PanseyBard
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